That is a very sad thing, Blossom, and it takes a long time to get over something like that. I will never completely be over it myself .

That said, I AM in a much better place now,,,, that's how I know it is possible.......

is it because you're in love?

Ha!!!!! Now you have me laughing!!!

Yes, I'm in love.

But, I was in a better place than I was when with my family before that happened. Being in love is awesome, but not required

Love is required though, even if it's as tiny as loving a favorite color.... there has to be some love somewhere that you feel inside.....and if you can't get to any of it, then you ask for help until you can.....

i wish i was in love...

i loved my cats but now they're gone:(

I'm sorry Blossom:(. That is so very sad!

It's an extremely difficult thing to pull off, nudging yourself to keep going, loving yourself even a molecule or two so you can keep moving forward, keep asking for help to get to a better place..... in the midst of despair all around.

I know this time you are in seems impossible. But look how much easier it is for you to talk about these things than it was when you first got here! You are getting stronger. It just really hurts right now...

yeah, i suppose it is getting easier to write how i feel, i find it hard to not write how i feel now..but i really don't love myself. i hate being me. i hope things change when i go to college.

Can you borrow a little love from us for a while, to tide you over? Please don't hate someone I love. It makes me cry.

i'm sorry, didn't mean to make you cry... i'll try harder..

Aw. Can I add my tuppenny-worth?

You can't give up just as you reach the age where you get to start getting whatever you want, even ice cream. Of course, you also get the responsibility to still be able to get through doors ...

But you can only be in love with one person at a time. You can love as many people as your heart can keep track of ... And you get to choose who they are! :-)

Make your own family, ladyblossom, and make it as big and as happy a family as you can stand. Because that there is a reason to live.

thanks malign, i'll try.

[and I don't mean to switch the focus to me, I'm just letting you know how I feel when you hate you, because I can't help it ]

Personally, I think you've already started. ;-)

i suppose i have already started:)

and i will try harder to like myself.

i want to get a tattoo...

All-over red, like the doggie?

no, i want a little black cat with it's back arched on the back of my neck

I'm not making fun of you, but I've often wondered:

Why would you want a tattoo where you would never see it?

i just want my cats to be with me forever! i think it's a good place to get a tattoo because if i want it to be seen i can tie my hair up. and if i want to hide it i can just leave my hair down.

It does sound pretty.

Hey, Halloween week is next week. When do our costumes have to be done?

i have no costume.... what are you dressing up as?

Well now, aren't we supposed to keep it a secret???

Hey, I just realized, this being a digital realm, we could submit a picture of the best costume we can digitally create! Maybe malign could show us a few tricks on how to do that?????

Arf.

*goes to find a picture of Julie Andrews to paste his head onto*

"The hills are alive! with the sound of a few tricks ..."

well, yeah, but i'm not sure if this halloween thing is gonna work....

what???? No giant bonfires??