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Blossom

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well...today has been another horrible day. i really really really don't want to feel like this anymore. i'm tired of feeling. i'm tired of living. nothing makes me happy anymore, not even the things that used to make me happy. I'm scared. because i'm not so sure if there really is a way out of these feelings other than killing myself. i don't want to be like this forever. i don't want to be on my own or to be invisible anymore. i feel lonely all the time and noone wants me, not even me, and that's what hurts the most.

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whew!!!!! i'm just home now!!! i was out with some art friends that i hadn't seen in ages. it's so good to be warm again!!! it rained... on us. we panicked at first but then decided to embrace the raineyness because we're irish:) so we hung out and jumped around in the rain and drank for a few hours!!!!!!!! it made sense at the time.. i didn't drink too much, i don't think. well, i didn't feel too drunk earlier but maybe i am a teensy tiny bit now. because i'm sitting ;in bed whispering to myself... usually i only whisper to myself when i'm drunk. maybe that's a sign that i really am drunk.. i dunno....i also have poetry written all over my arm! sometimes i give myself fake tattoos when i'm bored but this is the first time i've written poetry on my arms.. maybe that means i'm going to be a poet... or else a poet/arteeeest,,,? i'm so wet right now...and cold. i think.

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i love when people ask me what my name is when i'm out. i always tell them my artist name and they're like..."WHAT...???!"

"are you for real..? "

and i'm like "YEAH!!!!"

i'm glad i invented my artist name. noone else in the whole wide world has a name like it because it's so rare.

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oooooooooooooooooooohhhhh. i'm so cold right now that i can't get warm:( maybe i should've not jumped in the rain... sooooooooooooo cold,,,, my stalker is back. he really is a stalker. he knows stuff about me that he shouldn't know and follows me around when i go out. he creeps me out and he keeps asking me to go out with him and i keep saying NOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but he doesn't get the message... he has been my stalker for 2 years now. i always end up with the stalkers. last year i had 3. somehow i attract them... i'm like a stalker magnet!!!!!!!!!! maybe i should invent some stalker repellant!!!!! it's always me that they come after because everyone else tells them to get lost whereas i don't... i'm not good at telling people to get lost. i don't like being mean to people. but i really don't like having stalkers either. especially not this stalker..!!!

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