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Blossom

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today was an awful day. i went shopping with my family. never again. the whole car journey up and down was awful. you know who kept shooting dirty looks at me. she was probably complaining about me aswel. i just couldn't hear because i was listening to my i-pod. it was a bad bad day.i'm tired of her constantly nagging me. she won't leave me alone. i'm tired of having to hide in my room. i don't know what to do anymore. i'm tired of feeling the same way everyday and i'm tired of typing the same thing everyday. that frustrates me a lot. i wish i could somehow relax myself enough to let go of the bad feelings. i don't know how because nothing works for me. i don't think my mind wants anything to work for me. it wants me to stay feeling bad and i don't know why it would want this. part of me wants to do something to make me feel better though. it's as if i'm kinda split in half, and each half is fighting the other. it's stupid. maybe if i were to go to bed early that would help me not have to think. ok i'm going to bed. even though it's not early. it's late. oh well...

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Yah, but that would mean staying where you are, so my bet is, you're excited. :-)

Um, shopping, book shopping, packing, google-mapping all the places you're going to be going, um, figuring out what courses you're taking and why :-) and just generally imagining the world of next week!

Maybe it's a left-brain thing.

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i can't go shopping because i'm working the rest of the week. i can't go art supply shopping because i havn't been sent a list of what i need yet. i'll be taking every course in first year and i don't get to decide til second year.

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Well, seriously, sweety, this is just a summer job and they know it, right? I'd take at least a day off, since you're leaving anyway, to make sure you have what you need at school. How far away are you going to be from home?

I would also have looked up my courses ahead of time, but that's just me being me, I guess.

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well, i'll still be working there at weekends when i'm in college, that way i'll have my job next summer. i've been working there 3 looooong years now. i'll be home every weekend. i can't really take any more time off. i'll be lucky if they give me the week off that i'm starting at such short notice.

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Well, I guess if you need pin money, it makes some sense to keep your job. Isn't the opposite possible, get a weekend job in the town where your university is, and if you have to, stay there during the summer? It doesn't sound like you love this clothing-store job all that much, not to mention the hassle of coming home every weekend.

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it's really hard to get jobs here right now plus i get good money there plus my parents wouldn't let me quit it plus i like all my workmates too much to leave them:D

bye malign:)

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I'm sorry she's riding you, Blossom :). I love your dogg pictures.... dogs are so incredibly enduring. They have to put up with some pretty awful owners sometimes. You'd be an awesome dog sponser.

Here is a site that is about animal qualities as lessons. That is the way the Native Americans see animal totems. It is kind of like postive affirmations, though a bit more intense, because there is usually a challenging thing to learn. They are about being brave, but spirit guided, and the animal qualities help with that. Like dogg's enduring, loving, brave nature helps us stay on the path, not get lost with how others are abusing us, for example. [dogg is so awesome!!! :)]

http://www.medicinecards.com/

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The way you find out your totem is to ask, and to ask with your best brave spirit, giving thanks in advance for what you are shown. Now most people would need a sponser and special ceremonies and procedures to get to a place of pure intent. It is very rare to get an answer right away, for one thing. You do not want to get discouraged. You set your intent and then wait, forever if you have too. [you can see how most people want a teacher to help them!]

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For Native Americans, it is a way of life. It is a different culture, that is all. It is and it isn't difficult. You have to have a pure intent, that might be hard, but then what is given to you is a gift, and that is easy. I guess it depends on how you look at it...

I have got little street kids messing in my pond now. :) They are so deprived, it is hard to turn them away, but they are tearing everything up. *sigh*

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