BLOSSOM I AM CONCERNED ABOUT YOU HUN

WHATS GOING ON

WHERE ARE YOU GOING AT 2 AM

PLEASE KEEP YOURSELF SAFE

AND IF YOU DO GO OUT TAKE A FRIEND WITH YOU PLEASE

Jj

Ladybug Blossom, is depression talking to you loudly again? [are you OK????:(]

i'm fine. i dunno what to do. i'm scared.

Are you back with ykw? What's going on?

yeah. i don't know:(

Does it feel like you don't know where to be now? Or something like that?

a little bit. i'm confused:(

Wow! I tried to find you a waterfall to sit by and a virus tried to take over my computer!!!!! My Avast antivirus software stopped it, thank goodness....:eek:

Sooooo imagine I gave you a waterfall to sit next to

What is confusing you sweetie?

i'm sorry:(

lots of things.

she's trying to be nicer to me this weekend. but she's still saying lots of things to me that are making me feel bad. i don't think she realises she is so negative. maybe she doesn't mean it.

She is probably deeply hurt by life herself and handling it in the only way she knows. That doesn't help you at all for sure. I sure know what it's like to have a confusing mother

probably. what am i supposed to do..

You've got to find your way... I'm so sorry Blossom. This stuff hurts so much and it is so confusing. She won't be able to help you with what you really need.

can i give up?

that's what i feel like doing. that's what i nearly did last night. i'm tired.

What does giving up mean for you sweetie? You do need rest. You do need a path that is not so sorrowful.

it means dying.

What you want is the pain to end. That is what we want when we think of suicide. [There is another person special to me that is thinking these thoughts right now.] You guys are stuck in a very hurtful place. You DO need to feel better. You DO need help.

i'm sorry..i hope your friend is ok.

the pain will never end. not for me anyway. it will always be there.

Because this is all you've known. The world is a very big place. There is more out there than this, and there is more inside you than this. It is our job as your friends to tell you that.

I love you Blossom. I'm so sorry you hurt :(

i'm sorry for being so negative all the time..

thanks finding.

i don't think anything's going to change for me though. everything was meant to get better when i went to college but it hasn't.

and i always feel sad no matter what i do.

I know it's hard to be patient when you hurt so badly, but change takes longer than this. You've got to give yourself a chance to get different footing. It would reeeally help if you did NOT go home on the weekends. I know you want to keep your job, but if you lose your life, how is the job a priority? You need a new home, your home, and it will take a while to pull that off.

i can't leave my job. i have to go home at the weekends. they're my family.

That is making you very stuck. You will need to make your own life as an adult. You can still be a member of the family, but being a daughter will be less and less your identity. You will need to be other things too as an adult person. It doesn't happen all at once, but it does need to happen

The growing up part?

i don't like the thoughts of growing up.