Mmm, that's the only problem with altering your moods chemically: it always wears off. Only the natural way really lasts.

the natural way doesn't last for me either..

Just means you need to keep trying. :-P

hmmmm.

i don't want to go to therapy tomorrow.

horrible way to start the day:mad:

if i had her number i'd call her now and quit.

I wish I could alter me naturally

me too starry..

yikes i'm so flat. this always happens when i'm tired..

i'm gonna go to bed now.

don't really want to wake up in the morning:(

hmmmm.

therapy in less than an hour:(

i'm so nervous. i'm even more nervous than usual.

just want to go back to bed:(

didn't sleep properly again last night.

i think it's because my body is ssssssoooooo sore after the gym the other day...my legs are the worse:(

hmmmmm.

i hate going to therapy. especially when she gives me the 9.30 appointment because i have to leave for college earlier and then my housemates ask questions because i usually walk to college with them. hmmm.

i really wish it was thanksgiving here aswel.

hey blossom,

sorry your nervous hun, hope that it all goes ok for you.

its a pity we dont have thanks giving either

Maybe we could celebrate it anyway

it was horrible. and she made me not quit:(

Hey Blossom, is she challenging you in a good way? Or is she being sucky ?

hey finding.

i dunno. she probably thinks she's doing it in a good way but really i just wanted to quit.

she says i have to keep a diary:(

What bugs you the most about working with her?

she keeps staring at me and saying nothing and i try to talk as much as i can to fill the silences but sometimes i can't think of anything to say and she doesn't help me out. she just stares. and it makes me really anxious.

i'm still sore after the gym the other dayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

i can barely move!

That does sound rather sucky. Is she young and inexperienced?

Wow are ye getting buff?

yeah she's young, probably in her late 20's.

what exactly are they sposed to do?

oh yikes...i dunno!! i never realized how unfit i was until the day after.. it's so bad.. i wasn't able to sleep last night with the pain in my legs:eek: and the same the night before. and i'm supposed to be going again this evening:(:(then the stupid wisdom tooth is torturing me aswel.

are you having a good thanksgiving?

AHA!!! She is inexperienced:p! [ye could have a little fun with that---- oh I shouldn't say that:D]

Sounds like you went too far with the workout. Were you lifting weights? I'm doing a workout with a giant therapy ball.

Are you going to go to a dentist???

Oh, and my Thanksgiving is very quiet and peaceful, thanks!

[ooooooooooooooh!!! what sort of fun?? give me some ideas!]

no, no weights.. i don't want muscles in my arms!!!!:eek:

i was on the threadmill for 2 hours:(

no i don't like dentists. they smell funny and they're bad.

but it's ok. everyone gets wisdom teeth don't they? [except Jj and Starry but that's because they're trying to set a world record]

i think i have to go back to college now

my tutors gonna get mad at me because i never went to class after therapy. she's checking our sketchbooks today and mine's kinda empty..

i'll probably write more about therapy later.

[Well there was the time I screamed to my full lung capacity in therapy!:eek: That therapist changed professions not long after that.--- she was pretty sucky, poor dear.]

Remember that therapy is for you, and not about pleasing your therapist. I know it's difficult to advocate for yourself when you've had the experiences you've had:(. I'm not talking about being mean at all. I simply intend that this is for you, and so if you do write in a diary, do it for you, for getting better, not to please someone else. Same goes for college assignments. Do them for your education, your experiences and learning, not just because you are told to.

[you are a bigggggg brave ginger artful doggggggggg!!!!!!!]

See you later, Blossomy!!!

ha! finding you're funny:)!!!

i gotta walk to the art shop in the dark and in the rain now and i don't even know where it is:( i'm going to get lost...

and my poor legs... how am i sposed to waaaaaalk?

Will this special cart get ye there???

Here's an umbrella

and a flashlight

awwww thanks fiiiiiiiinding!!!!

i wish i had them earlier!

i'm reaaaaaaaaally wet:(

i got lost... it took me aaaaages to find the art shop because my friend drew me a map and i think she got her directions mixed up...

hmmmm.

AND i lost my phone..

OH NO!!!! maybe someone will turn it in so you can get it back????

Here's a towel to dry off!! [oh wait, I think it's being used!]