cool, are you supposed to get alot?

I HAVE NOOOOOO IDEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW IT WAS SUPPOSED TO SNOW!!!! THIS IS THE BEST SURPRIIIIIIIISE EVER:)

hey can you tell me something?

Not being nice to me, I need to know the truth, does the way I think make people angry? I know I think wrong, but the way I present myself and talk and think does that provoke anger? do you know?

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WELL IT DOESN'T MAKE ME ANGRY ANYWAY... WHY, WHAT'S WRONG STAR-STAR?

oh nothing I just need to know, I think I think wrong or people take me the wrong way or something I just need to know but I guess it doesn't matter really cause I guess i can't really think different I just meant that I think because of the way I think people find me really irritating or that they get really mad at me but I get confused by it because I don't mean to make people mad.

I mean in my head i'll feel one hundred percent sure that i've done nothing wrong but all of a sudden everyone is mad at me and like really mad and I don't understand why

OH....WELL YOU DON'T MAKE ANYONE MAAAAAD SO THERE'S NOOOOOOOOOOO NEED TO WORRY STAR-STAR!!!!!! WE ALL LOOOOOOOOOOOVE YOUUUUUUUU!!!!!

WHO'S MAD AT YOU?

never mind i'm sorry blossom I just realized how ridiculous that came out.

is it still snowinG?

Starry, I wish you wouldn't do that. Nothing you do is so awful that you have to delete it.

It sounded like an honest question, based on a real hurt. Can you tell us what happened? That might help us give you better feedback.

Because in general, although you do have a tendency towards repetitive thoughts, that might be frustrating to someone who didn't know why, it certainly doesn't bother us, who know you a bit better.

STARRY DON'T DELETE YOUR COMMENTS:( IT DIDN'T SOUND RIDICULOUS. NO ITS NOT ANYMORE, IT'S JUST REAAAAAAALLLLY COLD.. I HOPE IT SNOWS SOME MORE THOUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh it'sjust when I am at home and everyone is there I don't even know what happens, well something will happen that will make me upset or mad but than if I show that all of a sudden everyone, is against me, like I've done somethiing so wrong, it feels like being attacked and I guess I just don't know why because it feels in my head that I am so right, but then what happens is after everyone is already mad than it makes me look like anidiot becuase than I do get a little ridiculous but that's because when you have five people against you acting like you're completely nuts and either yelling at you or mocking you than maybe I do act a little ridiculous but what happens to get there I won't even understand what I did, then of cousre I'm the ridiculous one cause I get upset and run to my room but why would I stay there and even try to explain myself to them when whatever I say will be wrong.

So, um, maybe it's them and not you? :-)

It's too small an ecosystem to design your experiments around, sweety. Most of them are probably trying to keep things just the way they are, like you do, so when you react "normally", it's a threat to them.

I guess that's what I'm trying to figure out, I need to know if it really is me or not, it happens too often, and what makes it worse is that I try so hard to not let it happen, so it feels out of my control. Each time it happens I say to myself that I will never let that happen again I guess I just need to learn to remain calm even when they upset me even if I don't understand.anyway sorry this really hasn't come out right, I can't phrase my question right and it's coming out too messy.

Have we ever complained about you being messy?

Maybe it's time to forgive yourself for being human.

How other people react is out of your control, starlight. You can't stop it from happening, so you might as well just open your fist and relax.

Thanks, no I don't remember you guys ever complaining about me. Thanks I just needed an honest answer cause sometimes they just make me think I'm crazy when I feel so sure.

They need to make someone feel crazy (it lets them off the hook), and you make it easy for them.

that's why I say that I need to learn to not care. If I didn't care than it wouldn't effect me. I don't see another way.

There are other ways than not caring. Asserting yourself would be another way.

But yeah, clearly, something about how think about the situation would have to change, or you'll just keep doing the same thing. That's not stupid; that's logical.

I think that it's because any other way, such as being assertive, would cause it to look like I was being confrontational which wouldn't be taken well and I.d wind up a mess. I know it's babyish but I'm afraid. It makes me feel like I have no options. But at the same time I do feel like there is hope that I will figure something out, so I think that's a good thing.

Well it reeeeally helps having experiences that are healthy with people, so you can restore your sense of sanity. I have to limit my exposure to people that pull me into dysfunction... it is too much to expect of myself that I can handle anything that anyone throws out. I have to give myself space and time to recover.

i am sick AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:mad:

sorry your sick hun

you got flu again ?

i think its a chest infection, that part isn't so bad, but i have a really really bad headache too and i feel soooooooo hot.

how are you doing today?