today was a looooooong day. i missed the early bus so ihad to get a later one and had to go straight to work. then home. it's really hard to adjust to being home at the weekends. i have to be extra extra careful when i'm at home. try be invisible so that bad things won't happen. it's hard being invisible though. i am getting tired! i feel like i'm in a big bubble. hmmmm. there's more i need to say but i don't have the words as usual..

i'm so unbelievably tired right now.. i want to go to bed soooo badly.. i'm not really getting much work done either though.. i keep daydreaming and getting distracted:( maybe i'll just go to bed. then work all day tomorrow. and stay up all of tomorrow night too.. hmmm.

well, all my art has been handed up so it's all over for 2 weeks. i stayed up all night last night trying to do lots of last minute stuff. we had to hang all our stuff on our studio walls. mine looked awful compared to everyone elses. i hate myself. i should feel happy but i don't:(

i wish everything wasn' t so complicated.

why is it that i can never enjoy myself???????

drinking used to help but it doesn't really anymore. i drank lots tonight but it didn't make me happy. that sucks. the sad feeling interferes with everything and i don't want it to anymore:( i just want to feel happy:(

hmmm. i hate how i feel uncomfortable in my own house. one of my housemates is gone home with her boyfriend. the other 2 are still here. but they're like a twosome so it's really awkward. i hate the way that people ignore me when i talk.

well who cares anyway. i don,''t know why noone likes me much. eJ[POITDSZ VK']JFRC

i had an ok night. now there're some strange guys at our house!! one is american and he's in the army! he says he had a dream about me the other night! i told him that was a bad chat up line. then he got with my friend:)

oh blah blah blah:( why come noone takes me seriously?

2-AMERICAN-GUYS-IN-MY-KITCHEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HE HAS A BROTHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am lonely:( i don't want to be on my own here.

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BLOSSOM!!!!! yer not invisible anymore!!!!

[or is that a mistake because the server went down?]

[glad to seeeeee yooouuuu!!!!]

i'm too scared to be invisible right now:(