yeah but i wanna turn into a BLOSSOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i need to learn how to meditate.

my angels say that i need to replace my old insecurities with new, empowering habits to realize my worth as a human being.

but i dunno how to do that..

You're already a pretty beautiful human being, miss.

It's believing that, that you need to work on.

Your angels said it better than I did! {Which makes sense; they are angels.}

There are ways to learn, though, sweety. You can ask a therapist; you can ask God, if that works for you; at least, there are places you can seek the answers, both inside and outside of you. The only thing that doesn't work is giving up.

i don't think so.

i bought a book on angels today. i closed my eyes and picked a random page and it opened on "healing insecurities".

you're sposed to pick a different page every morning so that you start your day more positively after reading it.

I know you don't; that's what you're working on. :-)

It's an interesting idea. Maybe if you can't think of your own positives, the book might have some good thoughts.

You might also find that your friends have some ideas of what's positive about you. I know you have a hard time putting our opinions up against YKW's, though.

marky do you know how to meditate properly?

i really really don't see any positive in me...so i 'm not sure if this will work..

Mmm, I've done meditation, but there are certainly better teachers, including 'finding'. I can reach a state of peace, a connection with the Universe, or Grace, or whatever you want to call it. I haven't yet been able to put it to use in my life.

Well, I know that you have long periods when you don't see any positives in you ... I think there must be some times, though. It's just hard for you to remember them, later, when you get sad again.

Does it help that your friends do see positives? For instance, have you ever considered asking one of your friends from your old school, why they're friends with you? You might find out some things.

{And you know you can, and have, asked us, and we gave you some reasons. Even though we're far away, some part of you does shine through, you know.}

ok ill ask finding.

i think i know why my memory has gotten so bad lately..

yeah i suppose i could ask them.

and thanks for being my friends:)

Bah. Thanks for being friends with me. It has been a privilege for me.

has it really...?!:confused:

Yah.

You don't think you're a nice young lady, but you are.

but i'm a brat..

[ thanks for calling me a lady:)]

Your mother may call you a brat, but I don't agree with much of what she says, so this is just one more thing.

nah she doesn't call me a brat! but i can be one.

Hey, I'm still one, sometimes.

Doesn't mean that it's so important that I define myself that way. :-)

ok

the angels say that i need to extend kindness!!!

they say if i act compassionately, i'm literally directing my power outward, like a beam of light that supports and uplifts the other person. when that individual extends appreciation back to me, i will then become elevated on a ray of very powerful energy!!!!!!!

Sweety, you already do extend kindness; it's one of the things your friends have already seen about you.

Although it would be really cool if it were like dueling ray-guns. :-)

yeah but it never makes me feel elevated on a ray of very powerful energy like the angels said.. so i have to try harder:)

But if you've never felt it, it must mean that it's our ray guns that aren't turned up high enough!

Phasers on ... um ... Elevate Blossom!

nooooooooo marky! it's because i'm not trying hard enough!!! do you know your guardian angel's name?

Hmmm, I always thought his name was "Oshit", because that's the name I call when I need him ... :-)

You mean I've been calling the wrong angel, this whole time?

uh.....hmmmm

i dunno marky...

maybe that really is his name...?

I think it must be, but he doesn't seem to like it very much.

He's late, sometimes. :-)

I pulled a muscle in my calf, on Sunday, kicking a soccer ball with my brother's little ones. I'm fairly certain I did call out his name, but maybe only after I'd done it.

oh..... well maybe you should ask him what he would like to be called.... just so you know for next time! that way he won't be late. can you walk? did you have a good weekend?

It's a good idea ... I have to admit I was a bit distracted, on Sunday ... I was busy saying his name. :-)

I heard a pop, and it did hurt quite a bit. Now, I'm walking about half speed, with an obvious limp.

But other than that, yeah, I had a fairly good weekend.