{I think she's volunteering to put on a black suit and white tie, and be your 'muscle'.}

[it's ok everything is fine.]

[not if being there makes you feel so bad]

[i'm not feeling bad i'm fine.]

[do ya want me to send ya gertie blossom ?]

[everything's ok but thanks anyway:o]

[maybe your angels will protect you at home, and you just have to ask them ]

[i already did but i don't really need to be protected anyway because i'm fine]

{Maybe one of the angels will be named Vinnie, and wearing a black suit with a white tie ...}

[um...maybe..?]

Good night, ladies and doggs; I will see you all tomorrow.

bye marky don't forget to wear your seatbelt

Woof Woof

you ok hun ?

(just thought I'd ask coz well thats all i ever ask )

are you doing any art tonight ?

hey, yeah i'm fine.

nope, i havn't done any art since last week but i'll try get some done tomorrow.

are you changing your name?

Trying to. Jessica Jane is my daughters name, kinda hurts a bit too much having people call me that at moment, probably sounds silly, but it just hurts ya know.

Think im gonna change it to SweetSue like mark suggested, what do you think ?

i like sweetsue:) because you're sweet and your name is sue!

Thanks lil sis

Think it will take me a while to get used to it though. Trying to start again, so guess if I change my name to Womble like I was going to, thats not really starting over.

What art you gotta do tomorrow ?

well, i'm supposed to have 4 self portraits painted for monday so i will probably just do them even though i hate self-portraits.

erm yeah self portraits are kinda hard, it makes you take a honest look at yourself. I hate doing self portraits, but I reckon you'll be ok hun.

uh huh that's exactly why i hate them!

plus they never look like me..

i dunno..

dont worry, reckon its the hardest thing for any artist to do, (unless ofcourse they are one of them people that really love thereselves)

Are you allowed to do abstract self portraits. ?

Or do they have to be like all normal ?

i'm not sure.. i think they want the first few to be normal ones and then we get to experiment. they didn't really say... i need to do well in this though.. because we only get 2 weeks to try out painting. i think about 50 people or maybe more are trying it out but there's only about 25 places for next year so it is competitive. i hate competition.

Well you have nothing to worry about, i have seen your artwwork, and well i love it, and i bet finding loves it too if you asked her. just try relax and have fun. the best artwork produced is when the artist is relaxed, and enjoying thereself.

Art is meant to be fun

maybe if we try thhink a way that you are comfortable whilst painting your portrait, it will be easier for you, what do you think ?

thanks sweetsue

i just need to be positive. my work turns out better when i'm positive. i'm going back to my old college to do some work tomorrow so that might help a little [i hope..]

Yep possitivity helps with every area of life. its not easy but then what is.

That will definately help coz your see your friends, and that will make you happy, and that happiness will show in your art work, you dont need to hope, it will happen (without even thinking about it)