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Victimorthecrime reacted to a post in a topic: Struggling š£šš¢
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Hello , everyone ! Itās been a while since I posted here , but I guess I just felt kinda compelled to vent, donāt really know who or where to go to with this situation š Soooo Iām just having a hard time coming to terms with the size of my penis (like most in this forum lol) Iām just upset that I have a 4.5 incher. Itās gut wrenching. I recently lost weight , got my mind right and became very handsome (not trying to brag lol) and I feel like itās pointless even being this āgood lookingā knowing I canāt do anything with the size of my member š again Iām 4.5 long and 4.5 thick (Iāve been told thay Iām pretty āthickā, so thatās a plus , if anything). Itās just so hurtful. Iāve grown into my looks and have very hot ,beautiful (and even a bit famous ) woman Looking at my Instagram stories on social media , and itās just so hurtful that I know i will never be able to muster up the courage to send them a message due to my lack of size š£ My size prevents me from dating , going out to bars and āhooking upā... Iām 27 and never had vaginal sex with a woman due to the shame of exposing myself (I have had some oral but those are with people who I know wouldnāt care ) Now , Iām not asking for a ābigāāpenis , or a even a āhugeā penis... but an AVERAGE size one would have been great. If my penis grew just an inch and half ton make it exactly 6 inches (or maybe even a little bigger on a good day) I think I would be ok. Even if it just grew ONE inch. I mean , Iām sure even if I was 5.5ā , Iām sure as a man I would still be Pretty self conscious, But I think i would find solace in knowing I was āstatistically averageā šš¢ idk .... Iāll be lying if I said suicidal thoughts didnāt cross my mind regarding this subject. I just donāt know who to turn to or who to talk about this. I have a new therapist who I want to bring this subject up with but Iām a bit embarrassed...... idk. Just needed to vent I suppose Blessings everyone !
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Hello everybody! I know I havenāt been here in a while, but lately that fact of having a small penis has been effecting me so tremendously , I really donāt know where to turn to and thought maybe I can open up to u guys about it. Fuck man, itās been hitting me so hard lately. I mean the fact that itās 1 inch if not less when Iām completely soft is just unbelievable. And for it to be 4.5???? Damn man, how am i even supposed to live a normal life with this deformity?? Can date , hook up , or do anything other 20 something year olds do and take for granted. I wish god would have had a little more sympathy when creating me. Why would he curse anyone with a penis below 6ā???? Just cruel man šā¹ļøšššI wish I could have at least been just 1 inch longer so I could be at the statisticly average size of 5.5 , which although itās still pretty small , I think I would have felt a little more secure knowing I was at least in the āAverageā according to medical terms š i Damn man. This feeling kinda kills. Any advice or words of comfort ?????
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Canāt feel sexual pleasure. No sex drive. Depressed.
emed27 replied to emed27's topic in Sexuality Issues
@LaLa I actually self diagnosed myself from doing online searches of my symptoms and also I watched a show on tv where some guy had the same problem I had. According to the show this condition is also called āp.d.o.dā and itās very rare with no cure. Only difference between me and the guy from the show was that he still had a sex drive. I donāt. I literally have no sexual response (although i can still get an erection through stimulation). You have no idea how much this hurts. It pisses me off because during the time it happened i was already going through some serious mental issues , but I always had hope things will get better. āIām only 17ā I would tell myself. And then BOOM! I had to deal with this issue. I donāt know what the point of living is anymore. I donāt have a sexual response , I canāt taste my food and I still suffer from severe psychiatric problems. The few doctors Iāve told this to have no idea what it is. I canāt live with this stress and anguish anymore. -
Since Iāve been 17 I believe i suffer from a condition known as āsexual anhedoniaā which is where a person ejaculates but feels no pleasure from it. See, before that, I was a very lonely and depressed teenager. I started to develop some serious psychiatric problems, However, my orgasms were my way of escape. I was addicted to masterbating and thinking about sex. Then suddenly one night i was in the middle of masterbating and I noticed I was about to have a really intense orgasm. So right before I was about to ejaculate I squeezed my head together in order to lower the intensity of the orgasm because I didnāt want to have a heart attack and then all of a sudden BOOM, I ejaculated and felt absolutely no pleasure. I immediately knew there was something wrong. I thought I broke something in my brain and now have to live with pleasureless orgaasms. Anyway, ever since that night I no longer have a sex drive or have any type of sexual attraction. Porn doesnāt turn me on anymore, absolutely zero libido. And when I force myself to masterbate in hopes of feeling a euphoric relief, i feel nothing. Iām now 25 and ever since that night Iāve woken up every day with sever anxiety, depression and suicidal thoughts because i no longer feel my orgasms or have a sexuality. I also noticed that I can no longer find pleasure in food. Itās almost like I broke the part of the brain that controls satisfaction. Iāve had an mri and it came out good. I just donāt know how to cope with this any longer. The one thing that relieved me from all pain (my orgasms) no longer functions. Itās been like this for the past 8 years. I hope everyday that itās just all in my head but I know it isnāt. I just donāt know what to do.
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PDXsUnHungAndUnsungHero reacted to a post in a topic: Coming to terms with having a 4.5 inch penis. Feeling suicidal. How do I cope?
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LostBoy reacted to a post in a topic: Coming to terms with having a 4.5 inch penis. Feeling suicidal. How do I cope?
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emed27 reacted to a post in a topic: Coming to terms with having a 4.5 inch penis. Feeling suicidal. How do I cope?
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Victimorthecrime reacted to a post in a topic: Coming to terms with having a 4.5 inch penis. Feeling suicidal. How do I cope?
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@lostboy1 Iām actually 4.5 , 4.7 on a good day with a 4.5 girth. And no this isnāt bone pressed. Iāve always thought measuring bone pressed was like cheating a little bit. And i wanna believe you when u say Iām average, but I just cant. You heard what @2thin2winās experience was like. Thank you for your positive words tho. I really do appreciate it.
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@2thin2win Wow, that was pretty harsh but very true. I guess I try to convince myself at times that Iām ānot that smallā and that itās all in my head. But the reality is that itās not. Itās very depressing to know I canāt āhook upā or have casual one night stands like people my age are doing. There might be no shame and depression when meeting the right one but living with this condition day to day and realizing i will most likely get complaints if not in my face than behind my back if i would to ever muster up the courage and āhook upā with someone definitely comes with a lot of grief and negative emotions. Thanks for keeping it real man. I think Iām starting to come to terms with realizing that the people who are telling me that Iām ānot that badā on this website are just trying to make me feel better. Just accepting the fact that I have a tiny penis is really hard. Idk, maybe one day Iāll get to a point where it wonāt consume my life. But for now my life is just filled with grief and depression. š. Thanks for the reply man.
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So @GoingInsaneās comment about how ānot that badā I am made me feel a bit better about myself and gave me a boost of self esteem. But then I read @2thin2winās comment about being humiliated and even rejected at one point and brought up the fact that weāre the same size and the shame and depression case rushing back. Damn, I never win š
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emed27 reacted to a post in a topic: Coming to terms with having a 4.5 inch penis. Feeling suicidal. How do I cope?
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@YOTH Thank you so much for your words man. Means a lots. I have a question for you. How did your wife react when she saw your penis for the first time? How did other partners react? Did she laugh, look disappointed or make a comment? Being that Iām only like half an inch smaller than you Im sure Iāll probably get a similar reaction. And be honest please, I could handle it. Believe it or not the very few people who have seen it have told me that Iām not small and Iām āaverageā when I ask them. But Iām sure theyāre only lying to make me feel better or to prevent things from being awkward. What gives me anxiety and depression is the reputation that will most likely come about after I expose my self to someone. People talk. Especially after a hook up. Iām sure someone will tell all their friends or maybe even tell me once I pull it out that I have a small penis and that will just kill me. I just feel less of a man because of my size you know? It just sucks.
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@lostboy1 so you want more details about my misery right? Ok. Since Iāve been 17 years old Iāve suffered from a rare sexual dysfunction called āsexual anhedonia,āwhich is a rare condition in which people feel No pleasure from an orgasm. Which killed me when that happened because before that I was addicted to masterbating my pain away. I know literally ejaculate and feel no pleasure from it.im also donāt get aroused anymore: I feel like Iām an asexual now. Nothing turns me on anymore and I hate it! Before I was full blow gay and Iāve accepted it now I donāt feel any form of sexual attraction towards anyone. That alone has cause great distress since it happened.ALSO, Iām a Virgin with an std that i gave to myself. There was a point in my life where i was d desperate and determined to feel sexual pleasure somehow someway so i started to atemp masterbating my anal area in my desperate attempt. Well by doing that, i apparently gave my self the Hpv virus: it was the worst feeling in the world when my doctor looked at me and said well this is a life long virus that you will have for the rest of your life , so i would just be responsible and tell potiontial parters before u engage o sex: my heart dropped cuz i was literally a Virgin when she told me that. Never had oral, or especially anal. Doesnāt make Any sense : oh and letās not forget about my list of mental illness. I struggle with SEVERE DEPRESSION AND ocd and anxiety. And adhd. Iām also obese. At 5ā7 I weigh 215 lbs. and Iām extremely unattractive. And to top everything off I have a tiny 1 inch penis. Howās that for a miserable life?
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emed27 reacted to a post in a topic: Coming to terms with having a 4.5 inch penis. Feeling suicidal. How do I cope?
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I just wanna die. I feel nothing but this tremendous amount of grief everyday. No happiness. I donāt think Iāve ever even experienced that emotion. Iām tired of pretending like every is ok. Itās emotionally exhausting. Iāll turn 25 next month and Iām dreading it. Itās another year of youth wasted with grief and depression. No one understands. Iām sure no one will even respond to this. Iām just done.
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Small reacted to a post in a topic: Coming to terms with having a 4.5 inch penis. Feeling suicidal. How do I cope?
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If you guys remember me, Iām the guy that has posted here before talking about having a ā4.7ā inch penis. But to be completely honest with u guys and even to myself, Iām only 4.7 on a good day. Meaning I have to have a really strong erection to be that size. For the most part Iām 4.5, as in 4 and a half. I realized that today as I spent about 15 minutes with a ruler next to my penis obsessively measuring it. I have finally come to terms that I have a 4 and a half inch penis and realized that I use the ā.7ā as a security blanket to make myself feel a little bit better. It doesnāt help that my penis is only 1 inch or maybe even a little bit less when completely flaccid. It even goes inside and disappears if I bend over or sit down when completely soft to just a little piece of wrinkled foreskin (sorry for the nasty visual). This emotionally kills like crazy. It consumes my mind, self esteem and mood 24/7 , 7 days a week. Thereās not one minute that passes that Iām not thinking about having a tiny penis. Itās this gut wrenching physically painful torture I can feel from inside my chest and stomach that even makes me feel like throwing up sometimes. I know that may sound like Iām over reacting but itās the truth and I just canāt help how I feel. If you remember reading my other posts you know that I also suffer from severe mental health issues along with sexual dysfunction that already cause extreme distress, this ātiny penisā issue doesnāt help. Everyday Iām envious at the guys at work or on instagram who Iām almost positive have an at LEAST statistically average penis size and donāt have to worry about this. Iām constantly thinking about the fact that I can never date or have casual hook ups or cool one night stands like people my age are having without being rediculed if not in my face than behind my back. I feel worthless, like less of a man. Iām not a man. Not with my 1 inch penis. I donāt think I can go on with this unbearable pain of feeling inadequate any more. That along with all these other issues I have to deal with is too much for me to take. I have a 4 and a half inch penis. There. I said it again. Itās not ā4.7ā or just a ācouple millimeters shy of 5ā, itās four and a freakin half. This kills me. I donāt know how I or any one can live a normal and truly happy life with this condition. I just donāt see it happening. I feel extremely depressed and suicidal everyday and I donāt know what to do. Iām slowly giving up. Iām sorry for acting like a drama queen. I donāt even know why I wrote this. Just felt the long need to vent I suppose. Sorry for the long rant, just donāt know what to do or how to cope with this pain.
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I think I don't have a reason to live anymore
emed27 replied to DontWannaLiveNoMore's topic in Small Penis Syndrome
@DontWannaLiveNoMore I have u beat by half an inch buddy. I'm 4.5, 4.7 at its hardest. I completely understand the anguish that comes with it. It's like a gut wrenching torture that u can feel from deep inside your stomach. I can't really give u much advice because I suffer from the same extreme insecurity and feel ssuicidal from it on a daily basis, but I can definitely tell u your not alone. There's people who have it worse. Look at me for example, on top of feeling like I have a small penis, I also suffer from a sexual dysfunction that prevents me from feeling sexual pleasure at all. I literally can't feel my orgasms. I ejaculate and feel absolutely nothing. I also suffer with severe mental health problems. That along with the feeling of having a tiny penis makes me a pretty miserable man. Might I add I'm only 1 inch flaccid, which emotionally kills like crazy. Just keep your head up. Let's try to be positive together. I'm here if u need anything man. And if it makes u feel better, I've litterly never had any complaints. I'm still a virgin, but I've had some sexual experiences with oral and being masterbated. I'm so insecure that every time someone would see it the first thing I would ask is "it's small huh?" And they would always tell me "no" and that I'm "average". I once asked someone to estimate how many inches they thought I was and they said "6" which is pretty average to me. So u being not that far off from me, I bet you'll get a similar reaction. Cheer up man. I hope all gets well with u. I sure hope the same for myself. -
As I've said before, I'm extremely insecure about the size of my penis. It causes me Great Depression and anxiety on a daily basis. But do you guys think it's all in my head or should i really have a reason to dwell on this? Completely flaccid Iam only 1 inch and completely erect Iam 4.7". This is non bone pressed btw, I wonder if that would make a difference. Anyway, I know the average is 5-6, more specifically 5.5, and ive always wished my penis was 1 inch bigger so I can at least be statistically average, or even just half an inch bigger so i can at least be in the "5 inch range". As you know from reading my other posts, this is just a small piece of all the other emotional issues I suffer from, but this one really kills. I got a referral to go see a urologist and hopefully i get approved to ask him if i have a micro penis or if there's anything i can do to increase my length, even if it's by a little. Although Im pretty sure that at 24 years old it's probably too late to do anything to fix any type of hormonal deficiencies (if any) anyway. What I'm basically asking is how bad is 4.7? Is that like "OMG" freakishly small or just plain old small? Or maybe even just about average (ok i think I'm pushing it there). I have a 4.5" girth if that makes a difference. Any HONEST opinions would be greatly appreciated.
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YOTH reacted to a post in a topic: How's everybody doing today? Hope all is well.
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Hello everyone! How's the past week been treating u so far? Hope all is well with everyone suffering. I'm feeling pretty low today. Well everyday, but today I feel the pain a little more. Trying to get my mind off things, hopefully hearing some positive things from my fellow sps sufferers well make me feel better. As for me, I recently joined a gym and just passed my driving permit at 24 years old. Better late than never I suppose. Now to learn how to drive behind the wheel lol.