Lately I've been living in fear.
The realization started to come about a year ago. I think I fell in love with an 11 year old.
I'm 23 years old, have a stable relationship with someone my age and a stable job and this sudden awareness has thrown my mental health into disarray.
At first I was just disgusted with myself for having feelings for somebody that age.
The disgust faded a bit as I realized I didn't have serious sexual feelings towards girls that age (I really don't want to sleep with them) but I have the undeniable feeling that I'm in love with her and that I want to kiss h