ycaljo Posted December 27, 2015 Report Share Posted December 27, 2015 I moved about 6 months ago to a new state, I'm now away from most of my family (mom, dad, extended relatives). I'm a single mother of two teenagers and they love where we are living now but I am so unhappy and it is causing me so much anxiety. I feel like I'm on the edge of a complete mental meltdown. I am so lonely and I work from home so I haven't met any people to build friendships with. I have noticed that I am becoming more and more isolated to the point I just don't want to leave the house. I don't want to even talk to people on the phone, I sort of just want to roll into a ball, lay down on my bed and never wake up. I don't have friends, I don't have a single hobby or anything I like to do. I just work during the day on my computer and sit on the couch in the evening. If this is all there is to life, I'm over it and I don't want to live it anymore. I'm not suicidal but if possible I would just like to sit in a chair staring at a wall until life is over. I just am done. I'm sure my kids would be sad if I wasn't here but they would grieve and then move on. There really isn't any purpose to my life so I feel like I'm just wasting space. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Victimorthecrime Posted December 27, 2015 Report Share Posted December 27, 2015 Is there anyway you could see yourself happy in your new place? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ycaljo Posted December 27, 2015 Author Report Share Posted December 27, 2015 I just don't know. I feel like the problem is definitely me, not the location. I just feel very alone and lost. I can't seem to move, I feel so stuck. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Victimorthecrime Posted December 27, 2015 Report Share Posted December 27, 2015 You have internet access, ever think of meeting friends on line or do you just miss the folks back home and that is all there is to it so to speak? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ycaljo Posted December 27, 2015 Author Report Share Posted December 27, 2015 I probably need to try to meet people, I just have such a lack of motivation. I don't know how to care enough to make a change, seems more realistic to just quit. But I guess that is just whining. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Victimorthecrime Posted December 27, 2015 Report Share Posted December 27, 2015 Ok maybe some depression is at work here. You sound like you are going through an emotional struggle. Any idea what is causing that or what root of it is? Are you angry w yourself? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted December 27, 2015 Report Share Posted December 27, 2015 hi laycee. sorry you're going through this. we are here if you wanna talk.take care. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ycaljo Posted December 29, 2015 Author Report Share Posted December 29, 2015 Thanks everyone for listening. It is what it is, I guess I'll figure it out eventually. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IrmaJean Posted December 29, 2015 Report Share Posted December 29, 2015 (edited) Hi laycee, and welcome to the community. I apologize for my late response. I'm sorry you're feeling so down. Is this a new feeling for you or has it happened before? Would it help to get out and do something with your children?I can imagine it must be very difficult to reach out when you are feeling so sad, but you did when you wrote here and expressed yourself. You are trying to take care of yourself and your needs and that is so important. We're here if you want to share more.Sending care to you. Edited December 29, 2015 by IrmaJean wording Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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