Lostone56 Posted May 9, 2016 Report Share Posted May 9, 2016 Where do I go from here now ? When I look back in the past . Everything that went wrong I can't change. I can't blame God for my mistake when I was a child . I wasn't conscious . Wisdom came too late . It's difficult to ignore being ridicule and rejected ( scorned ) by both male and female . This isn't what I had planned . I can't Tuck in my shirt .I barely can find a pants to wear because it makes me feel uncomfortable. Trapped because of my deformity . being laughed at on bus by the crowd of people and everywhere I go I can't co-op with life much more !! What choice do I have when clearly some says to another they should of made it into a girl instead because they can't see my penis or a girl saying he she . why is it that everyone knew something I didn't the boys I grew up with and the people I was around knew something was going wrong for me but no one said anything to educate me . I can clearly remember the way they looked at my crutch . my friend had ask me why is your penis small.my stupid reply was because my zipper was small lol .Nah it because of the wrong things I did too early in my life . That was as the answer i should of given back then . He was 3 years younger than me then . He made it through puberty I didn't . My hearts hurting me I don't know what to do any more :'( my mind took too long develop and understand everything by the time I realized I had f#@% everything up there was no going back to fix what I had done . I try to avoid friends and stay away from other now :'( what really puzzles me is why didn't my parents step in to prevent this . All they did was laughed about it . My childhood destroyed my teenage years and my adult hood :'( Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Obsolete Posted May 9, 2016 Report Share Posted May 9, 2016 Lostone, I'm sorry you are suffering like this. I wish there was more something I could say or do to assist. I hope things look up for you. ? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ShameOnThem Posted May 9, 2016 Report Share Posted May 9, 2016 I don't quite get it, how is your small penis the result of the wrong things you did too early in life? This doesn't sound factual, maybe you're imagining something because blaming yourself feels better than having nothing to blame? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lostone56 Posted May 10, 2016 Author Report Share Posted May 10, 2016 I was the one who ripped off the important part of my penis too early when I was a kid . that's what I did wrong early in life . I shouldn't of been thinking about sex. What triggered this was seeing it on TV . I remember when my neighbors 18 yr old son had brought down my pants when I was 5 yrs old and wanted to put his penis where it didn't belong :'( I remember clearly talking a walk to the hospital when I was 13 and had asked the doctor for a way to end my life because I knew I had destroyed the development of penis. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Shrimp Fried Life Posted May 10, 2016 Report Share Posted May 10, 2016 10 hours ago, Lostone56 said: I was the one who ripped off the important part of my penis too early when I was a kid . that's what I did wrong early in life . I shouldn't of been thinking about sex. What triggered this was seeing it on TV . I remember when my neighbors 18 yr old son had brought down my pants when I was 5 yrs old and wanted to put his penis where it didn't belong :'( I remember clearly talking a walk to the hospital when I was 13 and had asked the doctor for a way to end my life because I knew I had destroyed the development of penis. Wait!! there's an important part of the penis? nobody told me. Which part would that be? How did you rip it off? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lostone56 Posted May 12, 2016 Author Report Share Posted May 12, 2016 I masterbated too much and the attachment started coming off . This part is attached to the head of the penis clearly visible to the eye . It's responsible for the growth. The attachment at the back came of when I had sex with a girl one time . if u look at your finger nail an imagine the forskin over it .the nail would be the important part that I took off too early and finger the penis . it weakend me I couldn't kick a football from the goal to the other half of the field. When my aunt found out a wasn't developing she made sure her son never masterbated by being there for him when he showered. Each time I saw it was coming off . I regret the past . all I needed was for them to put a stop to what ever was going through my child mind . I wasn't addicted . just pick up a bad habit. dad has a 14 " penis I saw wen I was kid it was at the knee. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Gryphon Posted May 12, 2016 Report Share Posted May 12, 2016 14 inches? Obsolete 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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Lostone56 Posted May 12, 2016 Author Report Share Posted May 12, 2016 Yeah that's what he has even curves to the side . i'd say the neighbor 18 yr old was about 8 " I remember like it was yesterday Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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