alistair Posted February 15, 2009 Report Share Posted February 15, 2009 I have been struggling for a few years now. My wife left with our child for greener grass! My pain was uncontrollable I just wanted to disapear .Over the past two years we became close again and had another child. . Now she has found something different again and we are about to partFeel like I should be able to cope but scared of loneliness. There is no one to talk to. I have no friends no one close but her. I can't be around to many people or I panic .Some days I am on top of the world some days I wish there was no world. You may say I am a selfish person and you would be correct. I try my hardest to just live day by day and it had worked so far but the bad feelings are lasting longer I just need an outlet and that's why I am here. Last time I was given medication only to find myself taking ten times to much. I don't think I will kill myself I just find myself pushing the boundaries to the extreme. I would hate for my kids to think I did it on purpose. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
finding my way Posted February 15, 2009 Report Share Posted February 15, 2009 alistair, good work! You are starting to open up and express yourself. You will find many people here that struggle with despair. Is there any chance that you will allow yourself to work with a therapist? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
alistair Posted February 15, 2009 Author Report Share Posted February 15, 2009 I have tried therapy and medication neither are long term fix for me. I think I need to curl up and be alone for a while.My kids keep me going to work and they are the reason I get up in morning.Its just such a hard world to live in. Thanks for your time . I need love in my life to get me thru. . . When I lose that I lose myself. Although today is a really bad day for me I think I ok. I think I need to go back on meds to help. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
fallenstar Posted March 2, 2009 Report Share Posted March 2, 2009 I know your pain, I struggle with each day too. Please don't take more medicine than you are supposed to, it will probably make you very sick or very out of it. I don't know your personal situation, but you sound like you deserve better than your wife (or ex? wife).Fallenstar Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
alistair Posted March 6, 2009 Author Report Share Posted March 6, 2009 ThanksFor your thoughts . I should have done more to make it work... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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