renol Posted April 22, 2009 Report Share Posted April 22, 2009 (edited) One of the reasons I signed into this site was to hopefully find help, support and find a tool that would help me deal with addictions and mental issues in my life. I hate feeling vulnerable and I hate talking about my problems. But I also know if I don't ask for help I most likely won't get it. One of the things that I struggle with is porn. What makes this more frustrating for me is the fact that I'm a female and there is very little help or support out there for women who are addicted to porn. I'm sure I'm not the only women who struggles with porn but I often feel like it. I've never been married and have no children and so I feel that the only person this is effecting is me but I still hate it and hate the hold it has on me. I'd appreciate any suggestion anyone can give me on overcoming this. Edited April 24, 2009 by renol Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
renol Posted April 22, 2009 Author Report Share Posted April 22, 2009 Hi me again. I'm a little confused on how the promotion status works. Seems to me like everyone who signs in starts with a 6. How do I know if I've been promoted to trusted status. Thinking I should have posted my previous post somewhere else other then here. I'm liking mentalhelp.net a lot, seems like a safe place to get help and support. Thank you who ever started this site. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
smallstar Posted April 22, 2009 Report Share Posted April 22, 2009 Hi, you're promoted. You start at a 5, now you're a 6. Post away. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
malign Posted April 22, 2009 Report Share Posted April 22, 2009 Nope, everyone starts at 5. We're just doing really well at promoting people, so far, and we haven't really encountered any significant spammers since we started this new procedure. So, you're free to post anywhere you want to.You'd have to choose where you want it, but I might even be able to move it for you, though I've never done it before. I might have to ask someone how it's done. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
renol Posted April 24, 2009 Author Report Share Posted April 24, 2009 malign if you could move this post into the sexuality issues threads I would very much appreciate it. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
malign Posted April 24, 2009 Report Share Posted April 24, 2009 malign if you could move this post into the sexuality issues threads I would very much appreciate it. Your wish is my command; it wasn't even hard. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
renol Posted April 24, 2009 Author Report Share Posted April 24, 2009 Thank you!!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mark Posted April 25, 2009 Report Share Posted April 25, 2009 Hello and welcome! So - what is the nature of your porn problem? are you looking for ways to use porn less, or to stop using it? are you okay with it for yourself, but you are embarrassed about how other people view you because you use it? Some background information would be helpful in understanding what your motivation and wishes are in this capacity. Mark Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
renol Posted April 26, 2009 Author Report Share Posted April 26, 2009 (edited) I'll start with a somewhat brief background. I started looking at my dads porn magazines as a kid, I was about 8 yrs old. I grew up in an abusive alcoholic home. I was never sexually abused at home but abused in every other way at home. I was sexually molested for the first time when I was 6 yrs old by an older boy while his mom who was supposed to be babysitting me watched. From that time till I was 17 I was molested on several other times by different people, both male and female. I'm not sure at what point it went from being molested to just not giving a damn and letting people do what ever they wanted to me. I'm not sure why I started looking at porn. Maybe because I was so desperately looking for some type of love or affection. I am now 47 years old. I have never had a boyfriend and have not had any type of sexual relationship with anyone since I was 17. I have never been in a relationship, male or female, and don't really desire to be. For me porn is safe. But I don't feel that it is healthy for me. I know I use porn to escape and to self medicate. I have never been into romance novels. Started with soft porn but quickly graduated to hard core porn. I don't view it as often as I used to. Had stopped about 5 years ago but went back to it about 4 years ago when my brother in law committed suicide. That was about the time I started therapy for the first time in my life. Porn less or stop using I'm not sure. Embarrassing? Definitely. I am also a self mutilator, cutting and burning mostly. When I look at porn I start out planning on not looking at the hard core stuff but almost always end up on violent sites. For me I feel like it's an addiction that I can't control. That and food is what I use most often to self medicate. I don't think I can view less with out getting sucked into hard core porn which usually leads to me inflicting pain on myself. So that's pretty much me in a nut shell. Hope that answered your question. Edited April 26, 2009 by renol Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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