nancyannee Posted May 22, 2009 Report Share Posted May 22, 2009 i want to thank those here who found the time to respond to me...I won't name you. I would be afraid that I would leave someone out that really helped me...those of you that have responded know who you are. i am going to think positive and believe that my going in-patient is a good thing. i know I need meds and this is the only safe way to do it....wish me luckhopefully i will be able to come back when I am home. I may lose my internet connection for a while but when I get it up and going you will hear from meTHANKS FOR ALL YOUR SUPPORT!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tracey.f Posted May 22, 2009 Report Share Posted May 22, 2009 Hi nancy, Just a quick note. I just wanted to say good luck! Hope your stay goes well. Try to keep in touch, When you can!I know you have had such a fight recently, you have been a great support to me, even though you haven't been so good yourself! I just wanted to say thank you and i will be thinking of you!Keep your chin up, Hugs, Tracey. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
malign Posted May 22, 2009 Report Share Posted May 22, 2009 Nancy,That's great! I'm glad you feel safe enough, and your family is supporting you enough, to go. It probably is the best place to make those medication adjustments. I'm looking forward to hearing from you when you get back.Mark Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest ASchwartz Posted May 22, 2009 Report Share Posted May 22, 2009 Nancy,You made a great decision. We will be looking forward to you when you return home. I am proud of you.Allan:) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kaudio Posted May 22, 2009 Report Share Posted May 22, 2009 I am sure you will sort everything out in good time. Take care of yourself! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nancyannee Posted May 23, 2009 Author Report Share Posted May 23, 2009 That's great! I'm glad you feel safe enough, and your family is supporting you enough, to go. that's just it, I am not feeling safe. I am terrified. I told myself I was going Saturday morning. Now here tonight I am thinking of putting it off yet again until Monday. I have all the excuses. My oldest daughter (who does not drive) will go and support me. My husband does not know I am going. This is going to throw him for a loop. Yeah, if it came right down to it he would "drive me", but he would not believe I really needed to be there. He likes things to stay just the way they are... my oldest wants me to find relief. my husband refuses to believe I need it and my youngest is clueless as most 16 year olds are.Keep your chin up,Hugs, Tracey. :othanks for the hug Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
paula Posted May 23, 2009 Report Share Posted May 23, 2009 Hi nancyanneeAll I can say is... do what you feel necessary to do. Whether it means you going in the hospital or staying at home? Your husband... I recon is in denial of your illness? With everything that has happened in your life's recently... I'm not surprised both your head's are so messed up? (pardon the expression)Have you not thought about going to the Emergency Department and explaining how your feeling, but... would rather stay at home with your family if possible? Could they not just have you checked over and prescribe you with medication?Explain that you think that by admitting you as a inpatient could, and would, make you worst! Really, you are in catch 22 situation and don't know what to do for the best? There is no pleasing everybody is there nancy?My thoughts are with you no matter what you decide? Good luck! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nancyannee Posted May 24, 2009 Author Report Share Posted May 24, 2009 Explain that you think that by admitting you as a inpatient could, and would, make you worst! Really, you are in catch 22 situation and don't know what to do for the best? There is no pleasing everybody is there nancy?Being completely honest with myself, Paula, I have to admit I think inpatient IS where I should go. I know once I get there (I have been once before) it will be good for me. The facility is VERY good and has alot to offer. It is the ER and the LONG wait for approval that is going to be a drag. It takes hours and hours. But i know it will be for the best.I will be in touch when I can to update you on my progress.thanks for all your support................Nancy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
paula Posted May 27, 2009 Report Share Posted May 27, 2009 I hope all goes well with you! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
faith Posted May 27, 2009 Report Share Posted May 27, 2009 lots of love and good luck you have wonderful support and friends here, its a great feeling to know there are people here for you when you need them Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nancyannee Posted May 31, 2009 Author Report Share Posted May 31, 2009 After 6 days, I am finally home. I got my medications all sorted out and I am determined to stay compliant. I was finally honest with the doctors about all my symptoms.....needless to say my diagnosis was changed to schizoaffective disorder with a dual diagnosis of PTSD. So I have a hard road to hoe. I am sure with all the support here I will make it better than ever!I look forward to being back home and getting back in touch here.Nancy:) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
paula Posted May 31, 2009 Report Share Posted May 31, 2009 Hi nancyanneeGood to hear your on your way to recovery! I got diagnosed a Schizophrenic on my last Psychiatrist appointment, along with my Bipolar. Anyone would think I am mad Ha!You take care! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nancyannee Posted May 31, 2009 Author Report Share Posted May 31, 2009 Well, my siblings always said I was "crazy" now I have certifiable proof that I am....the only difference is I am proud as to how I managed to maintain all these years and raise my children.This last trip to the hospital has taught me to NOT be embarrassed or ashamed about my illness. I am going to embrace every quirky thing about me and live life to the fullest!!I can't believe how much better I feel taking the meds this time. I guess I was so far gone with my psychosis that I was reeling from the affects. I am GOING to stay compliant and do the right thing!!!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
smallstar Posted May 31, 2009 Report Share Posted May 31, 2009 Hi Nancyannee! I am so glad to hear you're finally feeling better! You made a great decision and I'm glad you realized there is no need to be embarassed of getting help when you need it. I hope things continue to improve for you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nancyannee Posted June 1, 2009 Author Report Share Posted June 1, 2009 thankyou smallstar. I am finally ready to embrace my illness after 20+ years of hiding it....It surely can only get better from here.My husband is going to make sure I stay on my meds and through several family sessions, he understands the importance now of me staying on the meds the rest of my life. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
paula Posted June 1, 2009 Report Share Posted June 1, 2009 Glad to hear your feeling better nancyannee. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
journeyupward Posted July 2, 2009 Report Share Posted July 2, 2009 Hi Nancyanne,I'm so glad to hear that you followed through and went to the hospital. I'm thrilled to know you are feeling a great deal better and you finally received the correct diagnosis and meds. You are very brave and I know you'll work hard to keep well.I am very proud and thrilled for you,JourneyUpward Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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