bettylu Posted May 16, 2008 Report Share Posted May 16, 2008 HiI'm posting on here because I'm pretty desperate for some answers.I've been suffering with self harm for around 6 years on and off, I suffer from manic depression but I think it's more than that. I get these time when I just lose it, I get manic over stupid things. I used to drive my boyfriend mad. If we had an argument or something and he didnt take my calls i used to keep callin and callin, i'd get so distressed i'd end up sobbing hysterically n self harmin before i wore myself out. I know it used to wind him up and it would only make it worse but i still did it. recently we broke up after 4 years and i have never felt so terrible. i cant be alone, i just cry and cry and think about wanting to escape. everything is nothing and all i just dont want anythin but to talk to my ex, i feel empty and so pained. i know he just doesnt love me anymore and i should leave it but i keep getting so manic, these episodes r frequent and by the end of it im exhausted, and i just want to die. ive attemped suicide twice but i dont really want to die because i couldnt bare hurting my parents. i cant sleep and i am underweight. i have my finals for my degree now too and i just feel like im gonna crack. i punched myself in the face to make my nose bleed to get out of an exam the other day and i feel so alone. what can i do because i dont know anymore...lucy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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