brwnezeblu Posted June 7, 2008 Report Share Posted June 7, 2008 I have been on a roller-coaster ride of ups and downs for about 3 months now. I feel this overwhelming urge just to throw in the towel, and end it all. I have experienced several different medication changes and I am becoming a person I don't even know anymore. I have issues with unresolved grief and loss of people very close to me, let alone the loss of my father at a very young age. I have never really grieved for any of my losses, I had too many other issues that plagued me, I was an abused child physically, mentally, psychologicly and the most devastating thing about all of it is that I discovered at the tender age of seven, I was sexually abused by a stranger. I learned to dissassociate and pretend that the horrible things that were happening to me, was not, I thought the following years that I was a strong person; now I feel like I am crumbling without any safty net to catch me. I have Major Recurrent Depression, PTSD, anxiety disorder, insomnia, anorexia and migraines, however within the past three months with medication changes, I have encountered an episode of "mania" this has never happened to me before, and I feel like the impulsiveness, lost of interest, lack of adequate sleep and having the desire to eat is leaving me vulonerable to negative thinking.I was wondering if anyone else has ever felt this way? How do I go on from here? Is there any hope? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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