smallstar Posted February 6, 2010 Author Report Share Posted February 6, 2010 It's getting late and I'm not getting tired.It's snowing out, alot. I wish it would stop.There's alot going on in my head.I would like to learn how to turn it off.I wish I could care about the things I should care about and I wish I could learn not to care about the things I don't want to care about.Something tells me my head will be going round and round all night. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
smallstar Posted February 12, 2010 Author Report Share Posted February 12, 2010 :eek:DONT WANT TO BE ALONEBUT DONT WANT TO BE WITH ANYONEWANT TO YELL AND BE LOUDBUT DONT WANT ANYONE TO HEAR METIRED BUT DONT WANT TO SLEEPI THINK I HAVE SOME FEAR THAT IS TAKING ME OVER AND FREEZING MY THINKING.IS THAT GOOD OR BAD????? :eek: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Symora Posted February 12, 2010 Report Share Posted February 12, 2010 Well, what are you fearing Smallstar....? Nightime is just one of those times when the creative juices start flowing, in the darkness, when the mind can finally rest from the exigencies of the day... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SweetSue Posted February 12, 2010 Report Share Posted February 12, 2010 well it dosnt sound like a very nice feeling to have star dunno if its good or bad, its a feeling.sorry not any help, but i do hope this feeling passes for you soon. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
smallstar Posted February 12, 2010 Author Report Share Posted February 12, 2010 :cool:HEY IT'S ALL COOLJUST WORRIED THATS ALLHAVE A FEELIN THINGS ARE REAL MESSYAND ANY SECOND NOW.....AND THE PEOPLE AROUND ME ARE MAKING ME NERVOUSAT ANY MOMENT SOMEONE MAY BE MAD...OR SADI DONT WANT EITHER OF THEM TO HAPPENITS MAKING ME UPSETMAYBE ITS JUST CAUSE IM EDGY TONIGHT Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SweetSue Posted February 12, 2010 Report Share Posted February 12, 2010 Im sorry starits not easy being home when your dad is prone to start shouting at any given moment. is there some way you can settle in your room, and put on some relaxing music, try distract yourself from whats going on downstairs ?distraction is usually what i use when im all edgy and nervous. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
smallstar Posted February 12, 2010 Author Report Share Posted February 12, 2010 :eek:I CANT GO UPSTAIRS YETNOT TIL 11AND THEN EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY TIL THE MORNING Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Symora Posted February 12, 2010 Report Share Posted February 12, 2010 I did not realize your situation Star. I'm sorry the vibes are not good around you... Just a few minutes till 11:00, and then you can rest Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SweetSue Posted February 12, 2010 Report Share Posted February 12, 2010 hope the time comes quickly for you hun its 3:30 am, here, so it wont be long now, just try keep strong, were here and will sit with you ok ? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
smallstar Posted February 12, 2010 Author Report Share Posted February 12, 2010 hi thanks guysI think I mislead you here....nothing is actually going on at the moment, everything is fine, I'm just waiting for it which I shouldn't do, I should just go with it til something happens, but instead I'll sit here and worry.It's my way to ensure that I never feel a moments peace.If I knew how, I would learn to not be afraid, not let them affect meBUt until then, all I can do is pay attention, and do what I cananyway thanks Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SweetSue Posted February 12, 2010 Report Share Posted February 12, 2010 you never misled me hun, i kinda understand, sometimes you can just sense / fear that something bad is gonna kick off just coz it happens so often.i used to have that feeling alot when i was at home with my parents, or even later on in life, with my ex peter.i dont know what you can do hun, its a very difficult situation that you are in.but we do care, and are here for you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
smallstar Posted February 12, 2010 Author Report Share Posted February 12, 2010 ITS FRIDAY--JUST THE BEGINNING OF A FOUR DAY WEEKENDITS NICE TO BE ABLE TO SLEEP BUT THERE'S STILL TOO MUCH TIME TO FILLI FEEL LIKE SCREAMING, ALTHOUGH I KNOW IT WONT ACCOMPLISH ANYTHINGI FEEL LIKE TYPING HERE, EVEN THOUGH I'LL REGRET ITMAYBE I NEED SOMETHING BUT I DONT KNOW WHAT IT IS I NEEDI NEED TO KNOW WHAT MY LIFE WILL LOOK LIKE ONE YEAR FROM NOWI NEED TO KNOW IF I AM WORKING TOWARDS ANYTHING, OR IF MY WILLING THE TIME TO PASS IS MEANINGLESS. MAYBE IT DOESNT MATTER.ANYWAY, IT'S FRIDAY, MAYBE I CAN THINK OF SOME WAY TO MAKE IT AN OKAY DAY Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SweetSue Posted February 12, 2010 Report Share Posted February 12, 2010 HEY STAR,STILL ON THE CAPS I SEE I hope you are having a good day hun, although I guess its just after midday in your part of the world.Why do you feel like screaming, are you still in a loud mood ?How would you like your life to look a year from now ?Would you maybe want to be in your own apartment ? coz if so then maybe that is a achievable goal that you could work toward.Im sorry things are so lowper for you lately, and hope soon things will become a little easier for you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest ASchwartz Posted February 12, 2010 Report Share Posted February 12, 2010 Hi Smallstar and Sweetsue,Focus on now, take in and enjoy this moment. There is no benefit in speculating about next year. Allan:) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mscat Posted February 12, 2010 Report Share Posted February 12, 2010 ITS FRIDAY--JUST THE BEGINNING OF A FOUR DAY WEEKENDITS NICE TO BE ABLE TO SLEEP BUT THERE'S STILL TOO MUCH TIME TO FILLI FEEL LIKE SCREAMING, ALTHOUGH I KNOW IT WONT ACCOMPLISH ANYTHINGI FEEL LIKE TYPING HERE, EVEN THOUGH I'LL REGRET ITMAYBE I NEED SOMETHING BUT I DONT KNOW WHAT IT IS I NEEDI NEED TO KNOW WHAT MY LIFE WILL LOOK LIKE ONE YEAR FROM NOWI NEED TO KNOW IF I AM WORKING TOWARDS ANYTHING, OR IF MY WILLING THE TIME TO PASS IS MEANINGLESS. MAYBE IT DOESNT MATTER.ANYWAY, IT'S FRIDAY, MAYBE I CAN THINK OF SOME WAY TO MAKE IT AN OKAY DAYI wish i knew how lifw was going to be one yr. from now. All we can do is take it one day at a time, and min by min. Perhaps setting reachable goals may help you . Write down a list of attainable goals to works towards. That way you would have direction , and maybe things will be a little more clearer for you. IMO, it seems like your feeling stuck right now, such as unsure as to where to turn or where to go in your life. that is a hard place to be. However, you can get out of it. Best wishes to you , smallstar. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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