trapped Posted July 8, 2008 Report Share Posted July 8, 2008 hello, i am new here, so i dont really know what sort of a response to expect, but i suppose the best i can do is supply you with as much info as possible starting from the beginning, then try to act up on the advise you guys give me! im a 22 year old woman (studying at university and working).when i was 16 years old, i was subject to a horrific gang rape, from which i overdosed on pain kills, as my family and i were being threatened (i have much younger siblings), being told that the same would happen to them if i ever told .. hence i felt the need to just escape from life.. i got put on anti depressants (Citalopram)i moved away from home at the age of 17, to try to escape the place i lived so i didnt have a constant reminder, moving around the country and finally settled and came to university in Birmingham. i have been at university now for 2 years, failing the first year, due to the fact i had a significant death of a close family member which hit me hard.. not i am just passing through the first year that i resat. i have moved house recently, to a much smaller, unattractive house, where there are rats in the garden and swarms of flies coming under the floor and out through the hole in the lamiate flooring where the gas pipe for the fire leads. i live with 2 other students, of which one is my good friend, although she is selfish and gets aggressive about things, the other is not such a good friend, but i get along with him, even though he is incredibly strange and irritates me often. the house was unfurnished, so alone i decorated the house and collected various pieces of furniture to make the house livable and nice for myself, to which went unappreciated by them. the area we have moved to is very rough, and im constantly paranoid about getting broken into, or the fact that the house is dirty (because of flies and rats) i dont like to step out of the house, as it reminds me of being back with my family, the areas are very simliar, i get really scared so easily, i never used to be like this, ive always been strong and not afraid of people, i thought my life was moving on, but it seems i feel completely trapped where i am now, since i have a 6 month contract on the house, i doubt i can leave. i dont know what to do. all i feel is that im completely trapped and i cant see a way out. im at the point where i dont even want to get out of bed in the morning, ive stopped eating, due to the paranoia about the flies, im just feeling utterly terrible. :confused::confused::confused: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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