Illusionist Posted July 27, 2008 Report Share Posted July 27, 2008 (edited) Hi:I'm new to this forum. I'm a 22 years old University student who is currently fighting a losing war against depression. Then I come across this forum and I felt not alone in my situation and was encouraged by the supportiveness of the members. So I'm just wondering if anyone can help me by giving some advice.My question is: Professionals seems to be agreeing on that depression is treatable. To what extent? How effective is each treatment? Can anyone give any advice on self help?- How soon and how well does antidepressants take effect after using- Would I develop dependancy or addiction if I take them- How effective is relative theropy?- How long does theropy take to solve my problem?Here's the backgroud info on my depression:Start and Cause:I am from Canada and currently I'm working in New York for the summer as university Intern program. Away from family and friends. Early June I took a day off and made a bus trip 13 hours across to surprise this girl I liked for the longest time by attending her convocation. I arrived finding her there with her new boyfriend which I had no knowledge of. I returned to new york and was depressed ever since.Symptoms include:- Extreme Difficulty Concentrating.- Extreme unproductivity.- Constant negative physical feeling. I dont know how to precise describe it. It's similar to nausea or feeling of anxiety. Almost feel like I'm a murderer awaiting the verdict. - Losing of interest in everything I used to enjoy. 2 of my best friends are comming to visit me all the way from Canada and I'm not even excited!- loss of appitite. Dont enjoy eating and cant eat as much as I used to.- Gaining weight. Dispite not eating dinner everyday.- Dreaming about her about once a week.- a third or a half of my nights were sleepless. I was in a semi-conscious state where I flip often, sweat and think about bad stuff.- restlessness. Uncomfortable keeping still. Sometimes I have a strong urge(and often do) to apply force to something. Crashing paper/platic cup to a ball. snapping a pen and such...- causing pain to myself. so far with teech and fingernails. often unconscious and realize and stop after feeling pain. no weapon or blood involved so far luckily.- thoughts of suicide. Doesnt anyone?- Cant stop thinking about the convocation event and things related to it.I have already been doing:- I try to smile to myself every time I walk across a mirror. But my smile has became much less vibrant than what I used to have.- I try to think about happy thoughts. But those thoughts are overwhelmed by all the negative thoughts that come across my mind- Talking to my sister through email. I keep writing these super long emails to my sister at work to seek comfort. But these only further decrease my productivity as well as my sister’s productivity.- Doing online research. I’ve gained much knowledge about my situation but… so? I guess what I need at this point is just treatment which I cannot have.Need help:I wanted and wants to see a psychiatrist. But unfortunately as a student, I dont make anywhere close to allowing me to pay for living, tuition and psychiatrist all at once. Free sounselling have waiting list of 1 year long. So at this point I am pretty much denied the much needed treatment.I also realize that I have love addiction as well. Now that's off topic so I guess I'll make a post in another subforumI've been trying very hard to overcome it myself. But as most of you know, it's quite impossible. In a place with no support from friends and family just made it THAT much worse. I'm now debating on dropping a term of school to do part time job and psychological treatment. But I'm wondering what I should expect from professional treatment or drugs. I also want a better way to self help. PLEASE help me! Edited July 27, 2008 by Illusionist adding symptoms Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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