precipice Posted August 7, 2008 Report Share Posted August 7, 2008 Mods, please move the folloing to th eproper forum as I'm not sure if this is a sexual or anxiety/depression problemI don't know exactly what to call my problem.I've been diagnosed as depressed and bipolarBasically, I get paralyzed by fear. I suppose I've had this problem since I was younger. School was hell for me, even at a young age as I couldn't let things go. Someone would make fun of me on a friday, or I would percieve someone as not liking me and it would bother me until monday or until I saw them again. This bothered me all through school and I still do it to some extent today.I had dreams and fantasies of transforming into something else, being captured and changed into something. This eventually lead to that somethign being female and I tried cross dressing. Through the first few years of high school, I had these secret ideas of becoming a woman once I turned 20.Needless to say, I never did it. I'm around 30 now. I'm married and have a good job, but I get paralyzed with anxiety, I guess. I worry about percieved interaction with people. I worry about money endlessly, to the point that I deny myself things I want because I worry about running out. I have trouble talking about anything on my mind, even to my wife, as I percieve others seeing me as weak. I dont drink or do drugs, by sex is really the only thing that relieves or refreshes me once I get tense. I'm blessed to have a lot of people that love and care about me. I wish I could stop doing these things to myself. I used to love helping people (community service/teaching/etc) but now I can barely make a decision to go out anywhere without shooting it down needlessly. Please offer some advice...I want to fix this Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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