Calla Posted June 8, 2010 Report Share Posted June 8, 2010 Hmmm, just typed this once, not sure what happened so here goes again...a shorter version.I have been single for 6years which to me is a very long time and I am lonely. But I don't think it's fair to date how I am. Which means a life of loneliness which is making me wonder even more what the point of being alive is, especially as I have few friends.I met a man recently who I have been chatting to at my gym and I got the impression he may have liked me a bit. But then one day I had been crying and I think it showed in my eyes and then the next day I was having one of my "greta garbo" moments and avoided him (I always go to the gym no matter how I feel to try and help pep me up) anyway I haven't seen him since. So I think I scared him off. But I think I don't blame him and he had a lucky escape. And even though I like him I can't help feeling relieved.And I think anyone who would settle for me must have something wrong with them and it puts me off them! So I am stuck in a vicious cycle.And I think I have adopted alcohol as a surrogate partner. It is my only friend type of thing. It helps numb the isolation I feel. And I am struggling to get through evenings without it.I'm just not sure what to do. How can I ever date someone how I am and not feel guilty about it. We could have some lovely days/weeks and then I will just suddenly need to be alone. I'm so lonely Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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