Proverbs31:28 Posted September 23, 2008 Report Share Posted September 23, 2008 Hi, all. It has been a while since I have posted here. Mainly due to apathy on my part. But, I find myself in a bad place and have always gotten great feedback here so thought I would throw out a line.When I last posted in July, I was in the midst of a major depression which was initially triggered by a misunderstanding with my psych's office. My T eventually recommended IP and I went in at the end of July. After 1 week, and a failed med change, I was discharged being told my problem was not a "medication problem" and I should "stop worrying about all of the little things" as this was making me worse. My T was disappointed at my quick discharge. I had been told the day before d/c that it would be several more days since I had not tolerated the med change (got violently ill) and they wanted to try something else. Then the next morning, I was sent home. So, T referred me to an IOP (outpatient program 3 days/week.) At IOP, the dr. was very unconcerned with my now out of control panic attacks and all he was doing was adjusting my sleep meds, despite my assurance that sleep was not an issue for me. By the third week, all I could do was sit in group and cry all day in between panic attacks which I tried to calm by pacing in the parking lot. I talked to my T and she and I agreed I was not getting any help at IOP so I quit, went back to my regular psych who immediately changed my meds. I am now seeing T weekly and will see the psych again in 3 weeks.In the meantime, I feel like I am falling apart. I had severe, paralyzing anxiety that started on Friday and continued until Sunday, including episodes of confusion and disorientation, like I didn't know where I was or how I got there. The anxiety is now back to its normal level but my thoughts are all over the place. OCD is in overdrive and crying spells are easily triggered.I weaned off of Zoloft last week and onto Effexor. I am not sure if this is at all related to the med change or something else altogether. I am giving up hope that there will ever be a better life. I have learned to function around my panic attacks by avoiding places, people or things that may trigger attacks. But, for the past several days, they occur more frequently with more intensity and with no discernible trigger. I am almost to the point of shutting myself off from the world, which is how I have handled things in the past. I appreciate any and all feedback and advice. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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