LaLa Posted November 9, 2010 Report Share Posted November 9, 2010 (edited) I haven't posted often about myself during the past few months (and I have started a new thread quite long time ago). I didn't want to, as... I still feel quite suicidal some days and... don't want to make people worry as it's not serious and... mostly; I see so many others here with so much worse problems! So I try to be rather positive when writing here and I like it (it's not always possible, but...) Well, but today, as I was walking from my therapist, I decided to start a new thread based on my wonderul feelings my therapist has filled me with. I would spend too much time describing the whole session, so I just want to focus on a single issue: the hug I was longing for, so many months. So... as some of you know, I write letters to my therapist almost every week. And one of the topics, which has probably always been present, was my wish to hug him. I explained many different reasons and imagined many different scenarios, ... but I never asked him if it's possible, assuming that NO.And today, "the time has come" and I asked him about it. And he told me that a hug is not a taboo in therapy and we can hug when I want to. He was so nice telling it! He explained to me ( :D) also that (it's a very liberal/free translation!) "if I, for example, caressed your bottom during the hug, it would be a serious infraction of the rules and a reason for you to leave the therapy with me immediately, but I would never do anything like that, I just wanted to clarify it..." I said: "Of course you wouldn't, no need to say it!" He also said that he supposed our hug would be pleasant for him. And then we were both quiet, only looking at each other, then I said "I really didn't expect it. Thank you for your answer :)" and I changed the topic. It was very temting, I felt so happy, but I knew that I couldn't do it today, I needed time to enjoy the simple fact that it's possible! I have to wait for "the right moment". A moment when I would feel "now, just now I need a hug". In the meantime, I'm looking forward to the hug! Edited November 18, 2010 by LaLa3 bad, bad English... as usually... :-( mthink31 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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