Fox1990 Posted January 6, 2011 Report Share Posted January 6, 2011 I got a call back from a therapist and she wants $110/h! I have no job, there's no way i can do that! And yes, i've searched for clinics and hospitals for someone with a sliding scale and this dinky town doesn't have any.I CAN FEEL THE ANGER BOILING & FEEL A SNAP COMING ON. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I'VE TRIED EVERY CREATIVE OUTLET AND SOOTHING REMEDIES AND ITS JUST NOT WORKING.I've been stuffing this shit because i have people depending on me. i can't just check out. If somebody says one wrong thing to me i'll probably go postal on them. this is beyond frustrating. my chest hurts i'm so upset.:mad: :mad: :mad: :mad:i can feel the heat rolling off me, my pulse is through the roof, my hands are shaking.This is the stupidest shit...i just somebody i can talk to before some bad shit happens. this is how people become homicidal! Ugh, i can't stand this. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
chatterbox512 Posted January 6, 2011 Report Share Posted January 6, 2011 Okay Fox, Do you have a forest or a deserted place where you can go and scream to the world (or Fuck the world) and get it all off of your chest? You need to do something, and maybe this would be theraputic. I wish my therapist cost $110/h, mine is $250/h. But that doesn't make it any easier right now. Hang in there, you will find something, and if anything we all have ears here, just vent here. We are willing to give feedback to you or listen. Just type, or scream, let it all out. Exhaust yourself into uter oblivion and start fresh, looking at this from a different perspective. But first relieve the pressure and stress!!I am here for you, keep PMing me!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Fox1990 Posted January 6, 2011 Author Report Share Posted January 6, 2011 Would love to fuck the world, Mel! Can i do it, please?! No, unfortunatly i live in a dinky town in central florida...no forest. I would scream, i do enough of it when i'm pissed, but i have old lady inspector next door. She would hear me and probably call the cops, then they'd come out and ask what the yelling was about, i'd have to tell them...and then they'd put me in a straight jacket and cart me.Just too much work honestly.See, i'm a low income family, my mom and i live paycheck to paycheck.I must seem like a complete monster! I assure you though when i'm on my best behavior i have a sense of humor anybody could laugh at. haha, hopefully in our discussions you will see that side of me!Thanks again for everything, Mel!You are an angel!-Fox Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CantGiveItAway Posted January 6, 2011 Report Share Posted January 6, 2011 Maybe you need to do something physical instead of creative. If you have some old punching bag or just lump your pillows up and beat the fucking shit out of them. If you do that long enough youre bound to get tired. You have to find some healthy ways to realease that energy, not bottle it up. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Athena Posted January 6, 2011 Report Share Posted January 6, 2011 Running works for my rage. It's cheap too, all you need is a pair of running shoes and loose clothes. You can even do it at 2:00 am if you need to (just stick to well lit areas and take a weapon or mace or something). Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
58corvette Posted January 6, 2011 Report Share Posted January 6, 2011 Kind of like that show on TV with that Doctor (Cant think of his name)?It would be nice if we could all Physically get together with Allan here on this site & just let it all out; although im not sure Allan would go for that.Anyway I hope everything works out for you Fox; I understand. It is just so Frustrating about the Cost for Everything; Especially when it comes to our own Sanity & Well Being.I live in a Hotel & not far from Homeless with my Oldest Son. Believe me I would love to Yell, Scream & just go Nuts in General without Hurting Anyone at all. Our Society Dictates us to Behave & Act a Certain way.Somehow we just have to believe Time will make things Better. The best to you!!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Fox1990 Posted January 6, 2011 Author Report Share Posted January 6, 2011 I think Allan would be too overwhelmed to even begin to help us.See, when i'm angry i have to have some kind of physical pain (fighting, cutting, punching walls, etc etc), it helps me. Pillows, well they're just too damn soft. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
chatterbox512 Posted January 6, 2011 Report Share Posted January 6, 2011 Hey Fox, How about your disabled car. Can you go in there with your pillow and scream into that. The car would block most of the screaming anyway, and what that doesn't the pillow will. When I get in the same stage that you are in (which I am in right now) I also have a hard time with reasons why things can't be done. Nothing will save you from what is destined to be, and because it is all inside of you you can't run from it either. So I am going to go smother it out with chocolate, if that doesn't work, not sure what I will do next. Good luck Fox, keep trying things eventually something will work. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Fox1990 Posted January 6, 2011 Author Report Share Posted January 6, 2011 I will definitely try using the car idea. Thanks.Hey lady! Back away from the chocolate!haha, be careful, chocolate can be dangerous ;-)If that doesn't work you will PM me and we'll work it out together.-Fox Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sensitive_woman Posted January 25, 2011 Report Share Posted January 25, 2011 Fox, I would do deep breathing rather along with the car idea... Breathe in to the count of 4 deeply and let it out slowly to the count of 8.Do this at least 10 times and you will be fine!!!! Tell me how you feel if you actually do it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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