marinlabyinth Posted January 11, 2011 Report Share Posted January 11, 2011 Well, it's not like it would have come to this if cutting wasn't so much in the media. but I thought since it helps others I wanted to try....had my sharpener disabled for a few months. tried but didn't break the skin a couple times. Last night, I was tossing and turning thinking about college, work, ect. (I'm a junior in high school ) I thought about when my mom paid a lot to give me a coming of age ceremony. We rented the priestesses, house on the beach very $$$, bought all kinds of treats, metalsmithed me a head decoration.....when we got there I got sick....I did the ceremony but was throwing up and shitting myself the whole time....ruined the whole thing and got a friend sick too she still holds it against me. i felt bad for all the bad things I've done to her and I am ungrateful. SO I took it out and Yes I cut. I thought I could feel like a tortured soul and a victim so I could feel less guilty about everything, and at least not act like a tortured soul/victim in public because that's immature and obnoxious. You know get it all out in public. But I didn't feel less guillty I felt more guilty because my parents would be mad about that. so I threw the sharpener in the trash. But I did enjoy the physical sensation, adrenaline ect. Just 3 tiny little lines that barely bled.Not really any question, just wondering your thoughts. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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