true-hope Posted January 15, 2011 Report Share Posted January 15, 2011 My son is standing here looking over my shoulder as I write this...He insists that I have an eating disorder and he is making sure that I tell you everything.So I guess I'll just start at the beginning...When I was a baby my mom would have to pinch my feet to wake me up to feed.When I was in grade 2 the doctor put me on some sort of medication to make me hungry. My teacher knew this, however she had a rule that if you didn't finish all your math you would have to sit in class over lunch and do it...no eating until you were done. It didn't take me long to realize this...and I used it to my advantage. I failed math obviously.I don't eat breakfast or lunch...unless I'm pregnant or just plain old hungry.Even then I feel sick to my stomach...not out of guilt or anything like that, I just feel sick if I eat early in the day.After the whole teacher thing (my mom threatened her and the doctor called her)my mom would stand there to make sure I ate breakfast at least, and the principal would stand by my desk to watch me eat.I started hiding food in my pockets and desk...they caught on when my desk started to stink. At home I would bury my food in my mom's fern plant. Mom had wondered why it was growing so nicely and quickly...until she caught me.I always eat supper ( home cooked, healthy meals)...and snacks after that. I'm a junk food junkie. I hide junk food so that I can have it all to myself.Under beds, closets, drawers...everywhere.I'm just a tiny little thing...short and all bones.I gained weight a few years ago while taking meds for anxiety/depression...and I actually felt good about myself for the first time in my life. My doctor said that I was a few pounds heavy for my height and age, but I wasn't over weight by any stretch of the imagination...and I felt healthy.I ended up losing that weight a few months later and felt sluggish and awful again. I wasn't eating more or anything else when I gained that weight...so I don't know how I gained it...water I guess.Now I'm with a man who has me hoarding junk food again, and he has (jokingly he says) told me that if I ever get fat he'll leave me.Don't know if he's kidding or not. He's just a tiny little thing (smaller than me) so I think there might be some truth in what he says.Because of my past, never having been a big eater, I don't think I have a problem...except the lack of nutrition in the junk food.Could someone please put my son's mind at ease and explain to him that I don't have a problem?I'm sorry if I have offended anyone or have said something here that shouldn't be said. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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