lostnalone85 Posted February 9, 2011 Report Share Posted February 9, 2011 I have posted on here once before, but I think a part of me knew I joined this community to help me through what was coming. I knew the emotional abuse and constant hellacious fighting, turmoil, and chaos would eventually boil over the top of the pot. This morning, I had to watch my 4 yr old niece and my 1 yr old nephew. They were at my ouse and my boyfriend and I were having a disagreement about an area rug. Pointless, wasteful disagreement. I knew we were annoyed with each other, but I didn't realize he was having an episode until he tried to take the car and leave me stranded with the kids (needed to run them back home soon). I tried to protest and ask him to please get control of himself and he was over the edge. You can just see it in someone's eyes when they lose touch...lose control. He asked for the keys and I said no and he slammed the door, slammed me against it, grabbed my hair on either side of my face, and slammed my head against the wall 5 or 6 times... clearly I said screw it take the car and gave him the keys (obviously him staying is putting the kids in danger, right?) so, he grabs my purse, slams it down (ripping it of course), and takes my cell phone (my only communication with TWO kids under my care!) so I had to try to get it back! I saw it on the car seat, so I ran and grabbed for it and he shoved me head first into the car the rest of the way (smushing my face into the passenger window) and slammed the door as hard as he could, catching 3 toes in the door. It hurt really bad, but I was most concerned with the kids seeing out the window so I just begged him to go and he did. I haven't even been able to cry. I am 25 yrs old and destitute. I put the kids down for a nap and the only thing I could think to do was come here. I just feel that if noone tells me this is all going to end at some point and that it's not my fault, I will just give up. Just check out on life. I just feel so exhausted, stupid, embarrassed, sore in many ways, and lost. I have no idea what is going to happen to me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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