I don't see any light anymore

[Nikolaus54321]

Before 3. days I want to jumo from my balcony, I couldn't sleep, Im take pils but it hasn' help me and now feel again like a last garbage.

I don't know what to do, evertything around me is a lie. Nothing is real, I can't stand this guilt anymore, It s eathing me from inside. Only what is keeping me alive is my promise to my Mom that I will never kill myself.

[IrmaJean]

Is there someone there, Nikolaus, who you can reach out to right now? Can you speak with your mom and tell her you need some help with this? I hope you will take steps to ensure your safety and well-being.

[Nikolaus54321]

Thanks IrmaJean for your replay but i think that I will be good for now. I went with my friend out and now I feel much better , soon I will go to my brother on vacation and may be there I will be fine for some time.

[LaLa]

Hi, Nikolaus,

I hadn't seen this topic before I replied to your post in the other forum.

I'm sorry you felt suicidal but glad to see you're already fine. I hope the vacation will really help .

Good luck!

[laura86]

I came to this forum cause i see no hope anymore im alone 1500kms away from my family and loved ones with my three small girls, i have no way to move home, i cry everyday im already on meds have been for a few years. My question is does home sickness go away??? I may have moved for the wrong reason im running away from myself!!