phreebird Posted July 31, 2012 Report Share Posted July 31, 2012 Not doing well tonight. Feeling like the world is caving in on me. In a lot of emotional pain, head is not right. Sitting here drinking and wanting to hurt myself. Everything seems too much right now. Don't know what to do. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IrmaJean Posted July 31, 2012 Report Share Posted July 31, 2012 Do you have support there, phreebird, and someone to talk with? If you don't feel safe, can you phone your therapist? I'm sorry you're hurting. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
phreebird Posted August 1, 2012 Author Report Share Posted August 1, 2012 thats part of the problem, i have no support, my family has basically disowned me, guess its easier for them not to deal with me, than to deal with a crazy person. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IrmaJean Posted August 1, 2012 Report Share Posted August 1, 2012 I'm so sorry your family has not been supportive. Your self-talk is something to be aware of; it seems particularly harsh at the moment. I'm listening, but I do hope that you can be gentle with yourself now. All of us struggle from time to time (me too).Feel free to express yourself here as much as you need and are comfortable with, if it is helpful. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
phreebird Posted August 1, 2012 Author Report Share Posted August 1, 2012 The struggle seems to be all the time and I can't get myself out of this hole. I'm going to call my local crisis line as that seems to be the best option right now. Thank you for your support. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lana73 Posted August 1, 2012 Report Share Posted August 1, 2012 How are you doing right now?(((((phreebird))))) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
phreebird Posted August 1, 2012 Author Report Share Posted August 1, 2012 Not doing well, just talked to crisis by phone, they want to send someone out to be assessed, can't deal with it, told them no. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lana73 Posted August 1, 2012 Report Share Posted August 1, 2012 Oh..... I am sorry. Do ou have any ideas what could have triggered it? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
phreebird Posted August 1, 2012 Author Report Share Posted August 1, 2012 Not hearing from my family...as hard as it was to reach out and let them know where i am at...just going to take my meds and hope tomorrow is better Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lana73 Posted August 1, 2012 Report Share Posted August 1, 2012 Sorry Phreebird. I am going to repeat myself, but future always brings hope. I used to have this prayer as my signature on this site, even though I am not very religious God, give me Grace to accept with serenitythe things I can't change, Courage to change the thingsI can change, and the Wisdom to know the difference. Things will get better for you, cheer up Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LaLa Posted August 1, 2012 Report Share Posted August 1, 2012 I suppose you're reading this already "tomorrow". How are you? Would you like to "talk" about the night here or better to focus on somehing new, less hurtful? In any case, take care and keep posting if needed!Hugs,L. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
phreebird Posted August 1, 2012 Author Report Share Posted August 1, 2012 Thank you for the serenity prayer, it has also been my mantra for a long time. Sometimes you just can't see through the haze to focus. I am doing better this morning, other than being tired as I didn't sleep much. going to try and focus on positive things today. just want to feel better, tired of the emotional roller coaster. i've had a lot of changes in my life recently and coping with them all is a struggle, but most of those changes i just need to accept and learn to live with, always the hardest part. sometimes i am just to hard on myself, and blame myself for others actions, i internalize this and just create more problems for myself. still working on changing the way i think. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IrmaJean Posted August 1, 2012 Report Share Posted August 1, 2012 I'm glad you are feeling a bit better today, phreebird. Change can be tough. I struggle with it too. I hope your self-talk is gentle and kind today. Take care. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
phreebird Posted August 1, 2012 Author Report Share Posted August 1, 2012 Tried to stay positive today, took a bike ride and went swimming in the ocean, cold but refreshing. Thanks for your support last night. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LaLa Posted August 2, 2012 Report Share Posted August 2, 2012 It's nice to "see" you relaxing, doing so pleasant activities... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IrmaJean Posted August 2, 2012 Report Share Posted August 2, 2012 I'm glad you had a better day today, phreebird. It's great that you reached out and took care of yourself last night. I hope your evening is peaceful and healing. Take gentle care. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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