ShortbusNinja Posted October 3, 2012 Report Share Posted October 3, 2012 Well hello everyone I am new here. I think it's time I talk about issues that drive me to where I am currently. I just don't know how to start. The hardest step. I guess I should begin with this feeling of worthlessness and the fact I am not good enough to do what I want. I can't cry which makes it even more difficult. it's been years since a tear has touched my cheek. I really feel like my body forgot how to. I have anger but it's unfocused. I feel out of place in my own skin some days.... I am doing this because there is also someone I care for dearly which complicates my life even more... tcvqyfeckdh and kuanpbvwb 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cynthia Posted October 4, 2012 Report Share Posted October 4, 2012 Well hello everyone I am new here. I think it's time I talk about issues that drive me to where I am currently. I just don't know how to start. The hardest step. I guess I should begin with this feeling of worthlessness and the fact I am not good enough to do what I want. I can't cry which makes it even more difficult. it's been years since a tear has touched my cheek. I really feel like my body forgot how to. I have anger but it's unfocused. I feel out of place in my own skin some days.... I am doing this because there is also someone I care for dearly which complicates my life even more...Wow I just replied to your note about your warehouse and had the wrong impression; sorry.I would recommend joining a CBT group or reading the CBT book by Sam obitz and start doing the TEA form exercise. I strongly suspect it's the anxiety producing way you process things that is causing a lot of your problems and I think CBT would help you a lot if you are willing to work on yourself. Good luck! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IrmaJean Posted October 5, 2012 Report Share Posted October 5, 2012 I am wondering has there been there any trauma in your past, Shortbus? You mention that there is someone who you care for in your life. That is wonderful. Are you able to connect with and appreciate the caring aspects of yourself? It's always up to you whether to answer questions or not.I hope you have a peaceful day.Take care. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ShortbusNinja Posted October 5, 2012 Author Report Share Posted October 5, 2012 I have lots of trauma. I moved the bulk of what ails me to the Depression area being that I am going through the diagnosis process for it. The Dr. doesn't think it is to bad but it has been prolonged enough to warrant more research before going deeper. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ShortbusNinja Posted October 5, 2012 Author Report Share Posted October 5, 2012 It's hard also for the person I care for could care less for anything about me yet here I am on the ride with her.... It makes things difficult but then again without her it makes it worse... plus there is complications... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ShortbusNinja Posted October 7, 2012 Author Report Share Posted October 7, 2012 Mental warehouse works well cynthia if I am focused. The biggest issue is if I am not able to be focused. The depression that eats away at me normally is held in check. Though I would have it beat if while it's in check I did something else. Just fear keeps me away... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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