medlem Posted October 23, 2012 Report Share Posted October 23, 2012 It's almost 6 am.I'm awake because I'm feeling overwhelmed.I have found myself. My identity is based on events of my life and they are very intensive. You have to be a very strong person to handle it. To be continued.. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
medlem Posted October 23, 2012 Author Report Share Posted October 23, 2012 What I mean is I'm not so strong right now.Too much of feelings and thinking makes me feel sick.I'm trying to create a vision about where and who I am. I have only abstract images in my mind where I am and where should I be.In some of the pictures I see airplanes and airports. Sunbeams, light and warm blue early morning sky high in the air + "Bedshaped" by Keane is matching the vision. The rest of feelings I don't know how to explane, they are unique and they represent my essence. I haven't found anything to compare that with. It is something between me and God and my soulmate who passed away many years ago. But he's still here. The closer I come to what makes me ME, my feelings become overwhealming, then it gets too much.. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LaLa Posted November 7, 2012 Report Share Posted November 7, 2012 I find it interesting.The closer I come to what makes me ME, my feelings become overwhealming, then it gets too much..In what sense overwhealming? And "too much what/how"?Anything new in the meantime? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
medlem Posted November 10, 2012 Author Report Share Posted November 10, 2012 I think my life is based on emotions. I use to feel a lot. I ment that I get too many and too strong, intense feelings so it gets too much.Every succes in my life is because of decisions that I made guiding by my feelings. I've always tried to translate what I feel in words or any other visible way because I'm an artist.By the way I start to feel that an artist is a diagnose since a psychiatrist said to me " you feel this way maybe because youre an artist". It's true but it's nothing good. Of course, I changed my doctor. It was like I had to prove that I'm not feeling okay. It was like another project that I couldn't take. A good doctor should react directly if a patient says that "I'm not feeling okay".However lately I'm feeling on the contrary - I feel nothing. That's why I'm confused - I don't know what to say, what to do, to stand or sit.. I can't be without feelings. It's hard when it comes to love. I love my husband but I don't feel, I just know. During this period of no feelings I'm holding to what I know. I'm not talking much lately, I don't know what to say. I'm not responding much either, nothing seems interesting to me. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LaLa Posted November 10, 2012 Report Share Posted November 10, 2012 And was there anything that triggered this change - that made your feelings disappear? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
medlem Posted November 10, 2012 Author Report Share Posted November 10, 2012 No, there wasn't. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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