Popular Post nathan Posted November 19, 2013 Popular Post Report Share Posted November 19, 2013 I was born to hate people. If I lived in a less civilized time i'd be a rapist and a murderer. I'd be someone despised by everyone. I wouldn't be good enough to be infamous. Id just be the bad person I am, and no one but the unfortunate ppl who knew me would know from experience. Experiences theyw ish the y never had. Because like I'm a sick disease. I do things the wrong way. inevidably. I might aswell accept who I am and not try to be different. I might as well accept that I am a bad person and go with it. at least I could take a stand on that, so ppk could know who I am, and therefore other ppl be able to defend themselves fairly. And at least I'd be treating myself fairly too because I cant change who I am. I shpuld just die somehow. At least then I could be sure. And stop thinking. I mean I have done things that have might have gotten me close to death, but fuck it, I might Aswel just fucking die for no reason, I think that's really my life's goal. because it goes against my own little logic, but really it isnt't illogical at all, really that's what should happen to me. I just want to flirt with death maybe some more. Just screw around with it some more. And not anyone elses death. Tho I don't raly care if someone dies or not, by me or by any other reason, I just want to my own life on the edge. I want to personally know death inside out. I want to be so familiar with death. I want to dream of death. But then I think about dying some glorious way... in some other world, in reality I'll rightly die a drunkin idiot on the job ruining ppl's lives. I hate everyone, because I hate everything that I am. its not that theres nothing to like, but I choose to like nothing. And I like choosing nothing, because what is anything to me...nothing...because I just cant get what I want, I hold myself back from being the bad person I really am. The amount of giving in I give in order not to be the person I am is mountainous. And I just don't think its really real enogh to keep holding onto this nothing bullshit, I am that I am that I amthat I am, that I am that I am...I am. fuck u. I hate that I cant be rich. I hate that I can't be with the most beautiful and intelligent women. I hate that cant be more clear minded and intelligent, or humorous, or creative, or whatever something good is that makes you rich and get beautiful women. I hate looking back at my failed attempts at life. I'd be more proud of my attempts at death. And flirting with death. I'd like to go insane, I miss being more insane, I'd like to go schizo, I like that feeling. Id probably be the first happy schizo there is, but inevitably in some retarted form but fuk if I didn't know it, it would be great. I feel like things could have been great, but they went wrong at the best time and now I am evil. I cant stop envying other people. QuefeDuhalalt, zoodopidayDag, PakeNaiva and 62 others 65 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Posted November 19, 2013 Report Share Posted November 19, 2013 You make it sound like you don't have a choice... You always have a choice even if you are fighting your true nature every step of the way. Envy and me are tight friends too... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
anouarpac Posted November 23, 2013 Report Share Posted November 23, 2013 be happy life's too short and love people Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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