dvnJ22 Posted May 19, 2014 Author Report Share Posted May 19, 2014 dvn, I was triggered by the mention of rape today. It wouldn't matter who mentioned it. I had to step away. I do believe good and evil exist. I've had a lot of experience being on the receiving end of some very evil thinking and some very evil actions. After one very traumatic life event, for a bit, I had evil thoughts. I wanted revenge. I wanted payback. I wasn't so much interested in justice at that time. That thinking didn't sit well with me, thankfully. Enough about me.I'm sorry about your mother and uncle were raped. That was wrong. That horrific trauma effects the entire family, doesn't it? Look, I'm trying to let you know I think I understand some of what you feel,from living through my own experiences. What I know for certain is it is painful to live through. You have, so you know that.Thank you. You can also see why I am upset at people who say every thing is just made up in our minds. Yes rape is evil, no doubt about it. My uncle was abused, then abused my mom, and then my mother would speak about removing male genitals around me as a young boy. I reason to believe my sister was abused by someone as well. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IrmaJean Posted May 19, 2014 Report Share Posted May 19, 2014 That's a lot of trauma, dvn, to have to cope with. It must have been frightening and confusing for you as a child. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dvnJ22 Posted May 19, 2014 Author Report Share Posted May 19, 2014 I almost cut my penis off. I had the razor ready Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IrmaJean Posted May 19, 2014 Report Share Posted May 19, 2014 I hope you will not hurt yourself, dvn. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dvnJ22 Posted May 19, 2014 Author Report Share Posted May 19, 2014 Why? Why not do it? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IrmaJean Posted May 19, 2014 Report Share Posted May 19, 2014 It's your body and I hope you decide to take care of it and yourself. Life is precious. That's how I personally feel. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dvnJ22 Posted May 21, 2014 Author Report Share Posted May 21, 2014 Pain feels good, and that part of my body gets in the way. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IrmaJean Posted May 21, 2014 Report Share Posted May 21, 2014 Are you still in therapy? Would it help to talk to your therapist about your feelings?I hope you choose to express your anger without harming yourself, dvn. We are here to listen. liludallasWef 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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