BrokenInside76 Posted September 18, 2015 Report Share Posted September 18, 2015 Ok, I'm not sure how any of this works and not really sure where to put this. So please forgive me if I mess up a few things. Good lord, i'm on an anonymous website and i'm still nervous about opening up. I don't expect putting my feelings on here is going to fix me. I don't know, maybe it'll at least give me a little piece of mind. I know 1 thing. I can't keep going this route, I get more depressed with each passing year. I suppose I'll just start with what has depressed me the longest. My self esteem is pretty much non existent. I have acne, it's not horrible, but it's noticeable. I also have a small penis which is my more pressing problem. My first girlfriend told people I was small and it broke me inside to the point that I've only had 1 other girlfriend in 20 years. I didn't even know she told anyone till I was at one of my cousins parties a few years later and he told me. I've always been on the shy side, but when I heard that I had been laughed at about it, it broke something in me that I haven't been able to fix since. I have always had a hard time meeting women for whatever reason. Maybe it's my looks or maybe they can sense my massive insecurities. Either way, it doesn't happen for me. I used to drink pretty heavy, I guess because it helped me mask my problem. I guess as I get closer to 40, with a the prospect of having children going out the window, I've gotten more depressed. I don't even talk to or get on Facebook with my extended family back east. All I see is pics of thier families, and it makes me even more depressed that I can't get passed my anxieties to try and meet women. I just sit at home and think, why bother. Even if I was able to meet someone, I still have my small penis problem. It gets really old hearing how nice of a guy I am, I know people mean well, but it just sucks. Maybe this is stupid for putting this on a board where I don't know anyone, but I suppose I just hope at least 1 person out there understands. I'm just tired of being depressed about it. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted September 18, 2015 Report Share Posted September 18, 2015 hi there broken, and welcome to the community.i'm sure the guys in sps (small penis syndrome) sub-forum (which has members with actual small penises as well) understand completely what you're going through, as do i (as i have severe issues with my body image and masculinity). Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TooOld4This Posted September 18, 2015 Report Share Posted September 18, 2015 BI76, i replied in your other thread.We are on your side here. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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