Jump to content
Mental Support Community

Just not happy anymore...


BrokenInside76
 Share

Recommended Posts

Ok, I'm not sure how any of this works and not really sure where to put this. So please forgive me if I mess up a few things. Good lord, i'm on an anonymous website and i'm still nervous about opening up. I don't expect putting my feelings on here is going to fix me. I don't know, maybe it'll at least give me a little piece of mind. I know 1 thing. I can't keep going this route, I get more depressed with each passing year. I suppose I'll just start with what has depressed me the longest. My self esteem is pretty much non existent. I have acne, it's not horrible, but it's noticeable. I also have a small penis which is my more pressing problem. My first girlfriend told people I was small and it broke me inside to the point that I've only had 1 other girlfriend in 20 years. I didn't even know she told anyone till I was at one of my cousins parties a few years later and he told me. I've always been on the shy side, but when I heard that I had been laughed at about it, it broke something in me that I haven't been able to fix since. I have always had a hard time meeting women for whatever reason. Maybe it's my looks or maybe they can sense my massive insecurities. Either way, it doesn't happen for me. I used to drink pretty heavy, I guess because it helped me mask my problem. I guess as I get closer to 40, with a the prospect of having children going out the window, I've gotten more depressed. I don't even talk to or get on Facebook with my extended family back east. All I see is pics of thier families, and it makes me even more depressed that I can't get passed my anxieties to try and meet women. I just sit at home and think, why bother. Even if I was able to meet someone, I still have my small penis problem. It gets really old hearing how nice of a guy I am, I know people mean well, but it just sucks. Maybe this is stupid for putting this on a board where I don't know anyone, but I suppose I just hope at least 1 person out there understands. I'm just tired of being depressed about it.

Link to comment
Share on other sites

Join the conversation

You can post now and register later. If you have an account, sign in now to post with your account.
Note: Your post will require moderator approval before it will be visible.

Guest
Reply to this topic...

×   Pasted as rich text.   Paste as plain text instead

  Only 75 emoji are allowed.

×   Your link has been automatically embedded.   Display as a link instead

×   Your previous content has been restored.   Clear editor

×   You cannot paste images directly. Upload or insert images from URL.

Loading...
 Share

×
×
  • Create New...