AvenRoss

I have moved past this stage of my life and no longer require my account, thank you.

basically for the past 3 years I have been unable to go to school and to take care of myself by doing simple tasks such as cleaning and doing regular chores, because of my school problems they put me in a satilite program, it helped for a little while but eventually stopped working. so they moved me to a special school for people with disablilies such as my Bipolar Disorder. when that didn't work and we were all out of options, they (my counceler, parents, and psychitrist) decided to put me into residential treatment.

i'm going to a residential treatment center to help me with my current inability to function. I'm really scared, I'm only 17 and i'm going to be there for about 6 months...I really scared that it's not going to work and i'll just end up worse then ever, has any one else been to residential, and do you have any advice?

I was born into a domestically abusive houshold, except unlike most domestically abusive housholds, my mother was the abusor, she suffered from bipolar disorder as well, she was promiscuous and constantly pretended to be my older sister instead of my mother. She cheated on my father with a man who I saw as my god father, she would scream and yell and break stuff she would make me lie and at the age of seven she told me my father was a pediphile (he's not) but the lie made me sacred of my father for 5 years of my life, i wouldn't hug him, or tell him i loved him. she caused me a lot of pain and the pain resulted in me growing up a lot faster then a normal child would.

Hello I'm 17 but by far I have been through more then most adults, I suffer from Bipolar Disorder, but i think i also suffer from Borderline Personality Disorder, anyway, currently i have trouble dealing with the stresses of friends and school, actually i don't have any friends, and i'm too scared of rejection to make any. I'm thinking about dropping out of my high school and pursueing gettting my GED instead, right now i just feel like i need to get my life and mental situation in order, before i can pursue anything else... what should i do? my father will be so disappointed and angry if i drop out, he doesn't understand how painful and stressful it is for me to go to school. I've already missed appox. 30 days, whats the point in continuing?

I've been suffering from bipolar disorder a while now and it's really starting to affect my schooling. last year I missed 48 days of school and this year it's becoming even harder. I talked to my doctor and she thinks i might have ADD and I'm really not sure what to think about it...if i have ADD i hope there is a medication that will make me able to concentrate and be less fatigued. also i'm considering asking my doctor if he can put me on an anti axiety medication, to help with my VERY high stress levels. BUT if I can't find a way to wake up and get to school, and actually concentrate, I fear I'll have no choice but to drop out of high school, I've always had dreams to do something with my life, but now the stress and disorders are becoming to much to handle. Does anyone have any advice???

It has been something I have been struggling with for 2 years now...and i'm not sure what to do...It started my freshmen year of high school. I noticed that I was becomeing more and more exausted and It was almost as if in the mornings I honestly couldn't get up, I couldn't seem to turn the mental switch and make mself go to school, my father throught i was just being fussy and blamed and punished me for not going, I tryed my best to explain to him that I wasn't doing it on purpose that in reality all the days that i'd missed of school I would spend sleeping sometimes till 3:00 in afternoon even through i had gone to bed at 9 pm. The doctors just told me to go to bed earlier, but it didn't make a diffrence. after a year they figured out that it was a side effect of the medication i was taking for my bipolar disorder. but by the time they figured it out i had missed 48 days of school in one semestor. My teachers yelled at me and constantly put more and more pressure for me to be at school. And they didn't believed me when I told them I can't help it! So my question is: should I stop taking the medication that gives me the side effect or should i continue taking it and geperdise my education???

I'm leaving on vacation in 2 days and i'm scared, it's just going to be me in my dad, and we were supposed to go to the beach but now my father is planning to visit my uncle and his family instead. The last time i visited my family (and my other uncle Randy) came to visit my father's personality totally changed, he started to ignore me and acting like he was 30 years younger. sometimes i feel like he wishes i didn't exist. and my uncle randy was totally not understanding when it came to my disorder and i happened to be going through a very bad spell of rapid cycling and paranoia. my uncle got so mad at me because i was angry that my father was ignoring me. he told me to "Just get over it!" and i was so angy i just told him to just go away. honestly if i could 'just get over' my disorder I WOULD! but i can't and it's a daily struggle just to come above the depression and the pain... i'm worrid i'm going to have a falling out with my other uncle on the up coming vacation. What should i do, how do i explain why i act the way i do???

It's almost like a cycle, my mother was emotionally and sometimes physically abusive, she hurt my brother and I a lot and when i was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, things got a lot harder, i became angrier and more impulsive, sometimes i would have "episodes" of psychosis, because of these episdoes my brother has refused to see me and my mother (she is bipolar too, but tells people she isn't) she got so paranoid she got a restraining order against me. it's like the more my mother gets involved in my life the more angry i get. and since i live with my father sometimes i take it out on him, he says things that are hurtful and make me feel like my mother was right when she called me "crazy", it's gotten so bad that i've, hit him, pushed him, and thrown water at him, after it happens i usually cry and cry, because it scares me about how impulsive and i'm scared on day i could actually hurt him...oh and by the way, i'm only 16 years old. Can someone tell me how i can stop my abusive tendencies??? :confused:

Thanks everybody! I'll be honest it's hard when nobody seems to understand, but I'm really glad that I'm not alone....

I grew up in an abusive household, my mother was exstremely emotional abusive and lets just say it left a lot of scars. 2 years ago i was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and it's made my life VERY difficult, because everyone seems to have this pre-concieved notion that all bipolar people are crazy. and because of these opinions, my brother won't talk to me, my mother constantly uses my disorder as a way to hurt me, and my father is always complaining about the financial problems he has because of the price of my meds and counceling. I'm sick of being told i'm crazy and that i'm just a burden...because i'm positive i'm not.

hi my name is Aven and i suffer from bipolar disorder but have been currently working through that but i figure a little more support through this site couldn't hurt i still have things i'm trying to deal with and i'm looking for advice. thank you for your time, ~Aven (p.s. why can't i post on other fourms????)