SpottedNewts

Okay so I'd like if everyone took this seriously. I am in a relationship with someone I very much love but they are asexual, and I am almost constantly getting sexual urges and thoughts about them, but I would never want to make them do something they don't want to. I could and would never EVER cheat on them, and I must be honest but I don't know how to masturbate. I mean I know how, and I am AFAB male (so I have a vagina) but I cannot feel much pleasure at all unless someone else is doing it, even if I was doing the exact thing as them. So really my question is I need help with either controlling the urges or more importantly learning how to please myself, I am not able to purchase any sort of dildo or vibrator, please help thank you.

So I'm 16, and I know it's kind of gross to think a 16 year old could have such a high sex drive as I do but I'm really scared. For a number of reasons, and I have some questions. What size penis can I get using a method that creates the most realistic penis for a trans operarion? What is the best method of operarion if I want to be able to feel my penis and penetrate partners?