movesinherownways

I have been having panick attacks every morning once I wake up or right before I go to sleep. Anything that involves a decision makes me panick and microanalyze anything I'm doing. I'm failing all my classes in college, I'm paranoid my bfs cheating on me, and that my parents will try and take me away from the place that makes me happy. My mom blames me when my friends move on or any drama that they start. She never takes my side she makes it like my anxiety and depression are my fault and medication is the only answer. I just want to run away and support myself, that's the only solution that makes me feel like everything is okay. There are just so many decisions to make right now and I don't know how to bring myself to make any.