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I'm glad to hear things are getting better between you and your child, it can be very hard to have an adult child in the house, I know my own mother has to contend with one of my brothers who's bipolar and it can very difficult. Sometimes, if you can figure out how they're feeling and why, it can be easier to handle them. I found a little information that I thought was really good at explaining how a bipolar person is feeling and how to handle everything. I really hope this helps and everything continues to be well for you! http://www.healthline.com/health/bipolar-disorder/what-bipolar-feels-like

After reading your story, the ending conclusion is, if you feel you were raped, you need to contact the authorities and let them know so they can help you. Whether you fantazied about it before or not, you didn't ask for this to happen. You were probably drugged and depending on how long ago this happened, they may be able to find what you were drugged with and if you did contract a diease, the doctors need to get you checked so they can treat it as soon as possible. One good thing that could come out of contracting HIV is the fact that HIV has it's own DNA strand, meaning they can compare yours to whoever you think may have given it to you and put them away for what they did to you. You didn't deserve anything that happened to you, stay strong!

I'm sorry you're going through so much, I can understand the stress you're going through at this moment but a permanant solution is never the answer to a temporary problem. I know I don't know you pesronally but I do care for you. I just lost a friend to suicide just a month ago and it was just awful. He even had a wife and a step daughter who cared for him deeply and he chose to leave them behind because he felt stuck. He didn't reach out for help, or even tell her how he felt, he just waited until she left the home and took his life. I can't even begin to explain the pain she and her child are still suffering, they only wish he would have said something to them, or to anyone, they would have been there for him just like we are here for you. For your own sake, reach out to someone close to you and talk to them about how you feel, there will be always someone who cares about you just like we care about you and there is always a way out from any problem. Things can look downright bleak sometimes but there is always something good to come out of it. I was put in a similiar situation with my own mother long ago. The eldest of 4, it was my job to be 'better' then my siblings or be what my mother wanted me to be, even if it wasn't what I wanted... My, now husband, was forbidden to see me for quite a while, I was restricted to my own home, was never allowed to leave unless I was escorted and then guarded. I couldn't go to school, I couldn't go to work, I felt like I was a prisoner. I received daily death threats from my sister and brothers with no end in sight, my mother did nothing to stop them from beating on me. I would resort to cutting my arm to try and release my feelings and everyone knew what was going on but no one tried to help me. My now husband didn't even know how to help me besides calling and threatening my family for what they were doing which only landed him in trouble. I finally figured out on my own through watching a commercial that there was a place called A/WARE and although they say it is a safe haven for abused women from their spouses, I took a leap of faith and contacted them on my situation and they came and took me from my prison and gave me a second chance at life. Family is suppose to love you, but sometimes it's just not like that, no matter how much we want it to be. Stay strong, there is always another way besides taking your life. If I had gone through with my own suicide attempts, I wouldn't have my wonderful husband and my two beautiful children now. Just think of the possibilities of your own life, they might be hard to see right now but they are right there in front of you, don't give up on them, stay strong!

It definately sounds like it is a little of both but instead of ADHD, just ADD if you say there's not that much hyper activity. My husband suffers from ADHD and it can be difficult at times to get him to stay in one spot. For example, when he wakes up in the morning, he leaves. He's not going to work, he's just going out. Whether it's to a family member's home, a store, or just to drive around, he just needs to get away. He also has a bit of depression though as well where he will go out but when he gets somewhere, he doesn't want to do anything and it's not that he's lazy, it's just things that need to be done, aren't. He just doesn't have the will power to do them. I would consult a doctor about how you're feeling, there are different treatments to help with conditions. If you're worried about taking any type of medication, you can also talk to your doctor about home remedy alternatives. Not everything can be controlled with medication and sometimes just a small change in life style can help control your impulses as well as keep you motivated