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Hi Truce

Perhaps you can write it and give her the paper.

Hi jazz, yeah, it is hard to escape from deep problems. It is interesting to see people with very similar problems try different solutions. I believe having a healthy brain (without chemical imbalances, with no blood irrigation problems), is the key to at least achieving an estate of "mediocrity/neutrality" were we still aren't happy but are sufering less than before/not suffering. It is in this estate of "mediocrity/neutrality", were the power of making good decisions and confronting our fears, might put us closer to a estate of happiness. Hello TooOld4This, negative auto convincing can make us waste a lot of years. I agree with you about losing hope and remaining passive. It is as if our brain puts curtains so we cannot see what strategy to take. I guess the brain does this so we avoid the suffering and stress of hard situations. Avoidance doesn't make the problem go away. I guess that when the brain does this avoiding, it sends those difficult stressful situation to the unconscious (bad news, hard to have control over this) Thank you for your kind wishes, TooOld4This. Thank you Irma. I agree with you. Take care Irma.

Ok, I understand about the uniqueness between individuals. How about myself: Before finding the right antidepressant, I spent a lot of years trying to change my thinking, to no avail. Then I found the rght antidepressant and my mind started changing by itself, with no intervention, for the better. In my experience, I needed to have a clean canvas (more stable thinking thanks to my antidepressant) where to start drawing my improvement. Then I reached the choices stage. How to paint this canvas, which style to use, what to draw. (how to deal with my problems) I believe choices are a huge determinant for every unique individual.

Why only one outcome? What creates this limitation? So lets say that "John" and "Peter" both have depression. They are under the same exact conditions, but John makes good decisions and perseveres in doing beneficial things for himself while Peter just stays depressed, making bad decisions. Both will reach the same result?

Thank you Resolute. You mean that there can be positive and negative potentials?

Hi again mental Support community, an idea crossed my mind. Since there seems to be some kind of High Intelligence that rules this universe, do you think that every human has the potential of achieving a metamorphosis in his being were he can achieve his maximum potential as a creature? hmm... there is a big difference being in the first stage of metamorphosis being a larvae (crawling=punished? limited freedom?) than being in the last one, butterfly (flying=freedom symbolism? maximum potential for this unique creature? free from its more primitive form?) I have always tought, that this High Intelligence, have used low intelligence creatures such as insects to teach us, "high" intelligence creatures, deep knowledge that could be the answer to some of our existential problems. hehe I have always compared ants's society to ours. Always working, with hierarchy, goals, solidarity. Perhaps insects and animals's metamorphosis can teach us humans that if we make the right decisions and do the exactly needed things, we could be transforming this maximum potential into maximum wellbeing. So, is there a sleeping "super us" in every one of us that could hatch / not hatch depending if we make the right decisions in our life and do exactly the most benefitial actions tailored for our reality/history/uniqueness?

Thank you Small, I will try to continue posting my experiences.

This reminds me of when I was still punishing myself (even when I was the victim). I might be wrong, but it seems that we punish ourselves because we feel frustrated. In my situation, the bullying and some other bad experiences made me have very low social skills. Having very low social skills means for me no girlfriend. This has been a huge source of frustration for me, because I compare myself with others. Bullies were the victimizers, but we punish ourselves for the lack of certain skills that make us frustrated. It is as if we didn't deserve to be happy (to this day, I'm scared of being happy), of course it's not true. It's a cognitive disorder. Also I used to be very ocd, perfectionist. This ocd vanished the day I said: Even tough I'm a victim, I still forgive myself. I deserve to be ok, and will not accept toughts that make me feel depressed. I say all of this because you were seeing improvements in your mood with that med, but you choose to quit (why?). This med makes me do things, and also makes me think less of the consequences (usually pesimistic, unreal toughts). So I wonder what is best, think a lot but do nothing, or think less and do more/new things? I would never think about your contributions as thread hijacking, to the contrary. You are smart. This time I hope Pax conquers.

Hi Pax, thanks for reading this. I believe crohn's disease is whats holding you back. Perhaps there is some light in one of these articles?: http://scholar.google.cl/scholar_url?url=https://www.researchgate.net/profile/Lawrence_Brandt/publication/16113666_Metronidazole_therapy_for_Crohn's_disease_A_follow-up_study/links/56b8b3bb08ae5ad3605f4f84.pdf&hl=es&sa=X&scisig=AAGBfm3Z5vm-fhz806eXS-Q_judOgch1wg&nossl=1&oi=scholarr&ved=0ahUKEwjYnPPB9o3RAhXGQ5AKHSDmCKsQgAMIGSgAMAA http://www.nejm.org/doi/full/10.1056/NEJMoa051586#t=article http://journals.lww.com/jcge/Abstract/1997/12000/Crohn_s_Disease_and_Escherichia_coli__A_New.21.aspx http://www.healthline.com/health-news/FDA-approves-new-drug-entyvio-colitis-crohns-052114#3

Hmm perhaps those supplements give a subtle yet cumulative effect, but I think I needed something strong to shake myself, bupropion. Bupropion, is for me, the med that makes the big change so the supplements can act in a more effective way. I'm very skeptical about meds too, but I have to admit that this antidepressant changed my life for the better. I also exercise 4-5 days a week, going to the gym. I'm in very good condition and am planning on hiring a personal trainer. Exercise is a another big contributor in my mental health. It helps me reduce stress and its something you have control of. One can see the improvements, fast. Helps self steem. I have been doing things that I find funny a guy with mild schizoid personality disorder would even tought about doing. Last week I had a threesome with two escorts (no gf, and not able to have one yet), also attending a dancing academy (imagine all the extroversion, body expression, "happiness", being with 15 more people in a small room etc) as a challenge for me and I hope this can traduce in having a deep positive efect on my personality. The hard part for me is relationships. I was isolated for a lot of years, with minimum social interaction. I'm planning on paying a girl so she goes with me to "provocative" social places: restaurants, disco, cinema etc.

Hi Victimorthecrime, thank you for your kind wishes. Let me clarify that I'm very selective about which medication I start to use. In my situation, I can see in a few days, if the med is gonna have a positive or negative global effect. I have tried a lot of meds, but finally settled only on one antidepressant that has worked miracles for me, bupropion. This med makes me do things, even if a bit "automatic"; I'm being able to confront some of my fears, and do new thngs I would never have even considered with my old mindset. To treat my hypoperfusion, I'm using ginkgo biloba. I found this interesting site: http://www.me-ireland.com/treat/11.htm : " Treatments for Brain hypoperfusion, Brain Lesions, Neuroinflammation, Excess NMDA activity and other Neurological abnormalities" Hypoperfusion and Brain circulation Ginkgo Biloba has been found to improve blood circulation in the brain and some cognitive functions. Vinpocetine can improve blood circulation in the brain and some cognitive functions. Micro circulation abnormalities Some ME patients have benefitted from Vitamin B12 injections, with does ranging from 4,000 to 6000 mcg per day. This along with omega 3 fatty acids and magnesium resolves the abnormal blood cell structure commonly found in ME patients according to studies by Mukherjee and Simpson Simpson LO. Myalgic encephalomyelitis. Letter. J R Soc Med 1991;84:633. Protection of blood vessels from oxidative damage Anthocyanins and foods containing anthocyanins such as blueberries, cherries, blackberries, elderberries, bilberries, chokeberries (highest anthocyanin content), black raspberries. The herb buckwheat also protects blood vessels from oxidative damage. Olive leaf extract / Olive leaf soups have strong antioxidant effects. They are protective of the blood vessels and the blood. Taking antioxidant herbs, vitamins, minerals and supplements in one's diet can protect the blood vessels from oxidative damage over time. Arginine is required for nitric oxide production Scientific Research Arginine benefits Ginkgo Biloba protects blood vessels and produces nitric oxide Scientific Research Ginko benefits Omega-3 fatty acids The special Treatment Protocols of Dr. Martin Pall

Hi Mental Support Community, English isn't my native language. Just want to share some things about me that might help some of you. I was diagnosed with major depression and schizoid personality disorder. I always tought that my childhood traumas (for example severe bullying in school), had created my personality and way of thinking. It was as if my traumatic memories had remained stuck in some abstract part of my brain, causing distortions in how I perceived the things that happened around me and the reaction to certan stimuli. When I was 30 years old, my psychiatrist (the first competent one), suggested I do a Brain Spect. Brain spect: "A single-photon emission computerized tomography (SPECT) scan lets your doctor analyze the function of some of your internal organs. A SPECT scan is a type of nuclear imaging test, which means it uses a radioactive substance and a special camera to create 3-D pictures. While imaging tests such as X-rays can show what the structures inside your body look like, a SPECT scan produces images that show how your organs work. For instance, a SPECT scan can show how blood flows to your heart or what areas of your brain are more active or less active." The most common uses of SPECT are to help diagnose or monitor brain disorders, heart problems and bone disorders. Brain disorders SPECT can be helpful in determining which parts of the brain are being affected by: Dementia Clogged blood vessels Seizures Epilepsy Head injuries https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3149839/ https://encrypted-tbn3.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcSHOTuVENu11e5tH47mEvFgxLUyfrteCtX5i8PW0kz1WLlMFjLPuA It is just an example, not my exam. For example, blue areas in the brain indicate very abnormaly low blood irrigation. A normal brain would show as a gray color. My exam showed blue areas too. My brain spect showed that I have brain hypoperfusion (less blood irrigation to certain areas of my brain). After all these years of uncertainty, I had tangible proof of what was happening inside my brain. My theory is that our brain, when faced against very traumatic problems that we aren't able to solve, shuts certain parts of it (thus decreasing by a considerable margin the brain activity associated with that brain area) by sending abnormaly low blood irrigation to the brain areas being affected by the problematic stimuli. I have started taking some medication to increase the blood flow to my brain, so I can regain my "hidden" social skills that were shut down by my brain when I was bullied, by having very reduced blood flow to areas of my brain responsible of social interactions. Another theory I have is that it is futile trying to change how we think if our brain is being affected by some tangible disorder, like low blood irrigation. I lost a lot of years trying to change how I perceived things. It is a futile never ending circle. Now that I have started my medication, my brain has been slowly changing certain rigid thinking that it had, by itself. Also trying to leave the confort area and trying new things has helped me. When doing a new activity, it seems that its more important being able to confront our fears and complete the activity's goals than the results we get out of the activity. Results take a second place, more important for us is gathering the strenght and resolve to finish and not quit the activity that put us outside our confort area. This is what gives us self confidence. Try to do our best no matter the results. I have to go for now, I hope I can be a bit of help.

In my situation, some of the people that bullied me in school, did it just to emanate an aura of power, negative leadership. These people usually have a lot of followers. I think that in he end they are just cowards.