Edmacnamera

Andrei, I realize your post is pretty old, but I'm wondering how things turned out. Im a few years older than you but had a surprisingly similar upbringing- unstable mother (probably narcissistic personality) who attempted suicide, was emotionally and physically abusive, a father who never stood up to her and instead caved into her guilt tripping. Like you it was a family mostly of women because my dad was almost always at work. I agree totally about groups, political or otherwise that pretend to advance the common good and how despicable it is. I benefited from seeing a professional hugely, I'd be happy to learn more about your experience, help how I can, and learn more about your outlook, I have a feeling I could learn from your experience as well. I only just recently learned to fake compliments for my mom, it seems to work, but maybe there are drawbacks? Im almost 30 but it's crazy how the relationship still shapes who I am. I'm happy to say that I've been able to move forward, have a good career, wonderful, beautiful girlfriend and have a pretty optimistic outlook, but just the other day my "adult" mother had to be talked down from a panic attack after ingesting my epileptic little sister's medicinal canabis oil before going to a party. How are you doing? Reach out if you feel it would benefit you. Otherwise I hope you're feeling good since time has passed.