>26
> Black Female
> Lives with mom and siblings
>Was in a five year relationship (engaged most throughout) with a abusive cheating dickhead who was lowkey racist and bigot
>He broke it off with me two months after he threw a chair then hit me in my face
> Stalked/Harrased me for Three years after the break up (recently his wife told me she wanted to kill me after she called me ugly this happen in January of this year )
> Even though its been about three going on four years i still haven fully recovered
> I been having nightmares
> been even more suicidal lately
> Health been on a up and down yo-yo do to this
>Tried reaching out to other sites like 7cups of tea and the suicide hotline BOTH HAS MADE ME EVEN MORE DEPRESSED!
> Friends One moved to the south part of my state One i cant trust that well and the last has her own mental problems plus is hard to get in touch with
> been dissociating feeling not real and not alive
>Panic whenever i go outside longer than 20 min
> Lost intrest in alot of things.