DarknessRules

i remember when i first told her that i love her and wrote poetry to better express my feelings. her answer was what i was expecting. she told me that she loves me to but in the way a friend loves a close friend. just knowing that helped me to kinda move on though it wasnt an over night process. it took a few years but we are at the point where we both know that the other will always be there and in knowing that we both love one another our friendship has changed to that of being like family. i know that deep down i wish she would be with me as more then just friends but i also realize that in a way i got just that. a little sister that ive always wanted. it didnt turn out like i originally hoped and i dont always approve of the guys she picks to go out with but in the end i got a friend closer then any ive had or probably ever will have. it turned out great for me though it took a bit of talkin myself into telling her. dont rush in your decision if you decide to talk to her about it. i would suggest collecting your thoughts on how to tell her before bringing the topic up if you choose to. you know her best so use that to your advantage in the conversation. i hope my experience helps. use it as you see fit. oh ill be gone for a few days. goin on a camping trip. so ill be gone till atleast the 9th. so ya ill be unable to get online till then.

i think i know how you feel in this. i to have a friend that i have conflicting feeling about. we were really close and shared alot of deep dark secrets. we had alot of good times and were there for eachother whenever we could be. im a very shy guy aswell. so though it may not be exactly the same it is perhaps simmular. me and my friend part ways alot but we are close enough that we keep coming back to one another. it has been hard at times because i know how she feels about me. she sees me as being like the brother she always wanted. and she knows how i feel about her. that it conflicted feelings. its not wrong to feel the way you do. its hard being in that situation but it happens with alot of people. more then one would guess. theres not much advice here but sometimes it helps me to know that im not the only one. i know its hard but it might be good to talk to her about how you feel. you dont have to and should do what makes you comfortable. just a suggestion. if you want i can talk a little more about my expiriences with my friend and see what you think in the end.

thanks glad to be back. im goin on a camping trip in a cupple days. from the 6th to the 9th. so needless to say i wont be able to get on those days. but i look forward to tryin to help those that i can here. ive learnd alot in my time away. good things like im not as unlikeable as i origonaly thought i was and some of my stringths and limatations. and some not so good things aswell. but i found a way to support myself in times of distress when for one reason or another i cant ask anyone for help. its been a very informative time in my life and im glad i went through it

thanks

sorry ive been away for so long. hope i didnt worry anyone. things got kinda complecated for a while and i had to work some stuff through on my own. its all good now though. i have a few more things i need to take care of but i finaly have a little free time. so hopefully ill be able to get on here again from time to time.

i completely agree with that. though i suppose it might work if you could go back as a spectator. there are a few times i wouldnt mind revisiting. like the end of summer 2005 to late winter 2006. the happiest time of my life. that would really show how the smallest things affect the world in a big way. i suppose the closest we will ever come to time travel would be a simulation huh? go back and see the events and if you want see what could have happened had you done things differently. just a thought. what do you think?

welcome back. i just started getting back on this site not too long ago myself.

another good song.

ya. i normaly look up the actual video. but i dont know if i could post it here. you can look it up if you want. its a cool video in my opinion

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hOvgR_mWGco this song is very important to me. makes me cry sometimes. reminds me of a good friend in better days...