YOTH Posted July 20, 2017 Report Share Posted July 20, 2017 @Smallbeans Jesus, that must have been awful, there's literally nothing worse. Glad she's out and doing ok. Yeh, nights out are off the cards for now, not that went out much before, but it was an option. We don't live that close to relatives so for the last 9 years we've stayed in with my eldest boy, then just as you get a bit of freedom and leeway, bam! Baby! ? Smallbeans 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Smallbeans Posted July 20, 2017 Report Share Posted July 20, 2017 It was the worst experience of my life. I'm a 26 year old man with a mortgage and a beard and I cried like a little child. We were the same. Barely went out but I thought I have spent thousands on making my house perfect for me to not leave haha. YOTH 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Helpless_loner Posted July 20, 2017 Report Share Posted July 20, 2017 Sure! And as time goes by I grow bitter and sadder..And thus,lonelier.... Â Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
YOTH Posted July 21, 2017 Report Share Posted July 21, 2017 @Smallbeans I can imagine. Nothing knocks you off your feet like that. Your priorities change so drastically when they're born and nothing can prepare you for that feeling of helplessness. Hey, @Helpless_loner where about in the world are you? Smallbeans and Helpless_loner 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Smallbeans Posted July 21, 2017 Report Share Posted July 21, 2017 @YOTH I think the feeling of helplessness was the worst part. I pray to never go through that again. If there is a god. @Helpless_loner your not alone brother. You got us. Helpless_loner 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
YOTH Posted July 21, 2017 Report Share Posted July 21, 2017 @Smallbeans I suppose we grow and learn from that type of stuff, even if we are at the mercy of it. But I know from experience, if anything gets you praying it's something like that. Maybe use it as a message to do some charity work (a sponsored run or something) for the cause or charities? But don't quote me on it, I'm quite out of shape lol. But joking aside it must have awful. Really glad she's ok. ☮ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Smallbeans Posted July 21, 2017 Report Share Posted July 21, 2017 @YOTH Thank you for your kind words brother. She is home now and recovering. I think your right about helping others. As shit as we feel there is always others who have it worse I guess.  I give a percentage of wages every week to a breast cancer charity. I thought that had me covered haha. YOTH 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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YOTH Posted July 21, 2017 Report Share Posted July 21, 2017 I haven't been to Manchester in about 20 years, and I don't even know what I was there for. It was a concert but for the life of me I can't remember who it was, the hazy 90's. Yeh, I'll meet up wherever, I'm sure I can find it. I'll maybe try and book a hotel for the night, make it a 'holiday' for me and the missus lol. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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Smallbeans Posted July 22, 2017 Report Share Posted July 22, 2017 I've seen Frankie Boyle and Lee Evans live. They are the two biggest. Seen loads of comedians like Steven K Amos and Mickey Flannigan like at the fringe. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Helpless_loner Posted July 22, 2017 Report Share Posted July 22, 2017 @YOTH I'm sorry bro, I don't do this whole disappearing act on purpose, believe me haha. It's just my schedule from 6 o'clock in the morning to 5 pm in some cases that truly tires me at times, both mentally and physically. So when I arrive back at home I only have energy to do the cleaning and such (I live alone) and then sleep. Plus as you guess, my self esteem and lack of happiness doesn't exactly help either.  This is a bit of my story: As I've said I'm 30 years old and I've never kissed a girl or even have a date, let alone intimacy....Unlike the stories I've read here (kudos to all of you guys, you are brave) I've yet to suffer a bad or even traumatizing experience regarding my genitalia in fact I didn't begin to suffer because of it until I was like 19-20 years old. I've always had bare to none self esteem with the exception of a 3 weeks period may be haha, but not always due to the same reason. At first it was my looks. I was bullied in primary and high school because I was super thin, had acne, orthodontia and magnifying glasses so thick I could be saved from a nuclear explosion, etc, etc, so you get the picture. Despite that, I had really good grades and I was able to enter the best University in my country not only because of its education alone, but also it allows you to study overseas and such thanks to the scholarships it offers. At the same time, as the acne, orthodontia and magnifying glasses faded way I began to feel happy with my self, turned out that I was kind of this "ugly duck becoming swan" for I'm told I'm handsome (even to this a girl and even charming yet my inexperience kept holding me back but I was planning to leave all of that behind.... Yet! In regards of my penis I knew I was small in comparison to the porn guys, to me they were (are still are) freaks of nature and a kind of their own in the same way the guys who play in the later stages Wimbledon or midfield at Real Madrid, Barcelona, Juventus or Bayern Munich are in a league or their own in comparison to the rest of us at what they do. So it was truly never a problem to me until...  But the came the realization thanks to a female friend of mine when I was like 21 years old. I remember like it was yesterday: she told me while drunk that her boyfriend at the time was small in that regard (about my size) and she missed her previous one despite being an Azzhole due to how good the sex was thanks to his big penis. That his current's one "was the smallest she ever had" by a "long shoot" and not even her friends had one "that small" and even though she "loved him" she broke up with him.  The whole thing hit me like a tidal wave. I soon stumbled upon an article that said "why renaissance statues have such tiny penises" and thinking "geez, I look exactly like those" and then came the comments....."What a waste of hot bodies" "I dated a man of that size, it was awful" "if I was that size I would kill myself" and so on. From that point forward I reached the deepest bottoms of depression. My grades went down to the point I dropped from that University and had to study Cisco Systems. Besides, all my advances at feeling better with myself vanished and pretty much stopped caring about everything to the point I live "just because" . At times Y try to fight against it but ended up  surrendering. I mean, unlike being fat or having small boobs (in the case of women) there's nothing %100 proven that you can do about it. Sure I have a job and an apartment of mine, but I feel bitter and sad to the point I've almost set my friends and even family apart from me. I see my friends traveling either alone or with their significant others thanks to their better jobs while I'm stuck at home with this dead-end job in which it barely allows me to have holidays and let alone vacations. Summarizing I hate my penis and I even hate myself more because of how much that hatred has affected me.... Oh Well, in case you are wondering my size is 5.5 inch bone pressed inches of length in a VERY good day (which don't happen quite often and I'm sure I will DEFINITELY not happen in front of a woman) and it could be even less and a truly sad 4.2 inch of girth which is what gets me the most...Plus, adding insult to injury, I prematurely ejaculate even when I masturbate and I have pearly penile papules that I've tried to get rid off for years....I hate this. @Smallbeans Thank you my friend!   LouisZ and YOTH 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
YOTH Posted July 22, 2017 Report Share Posted July 22, 2017 @Helpless_loner It's cool that you shared that, I appreciate it. It sounds better in some ways and worse in others. On the one hand you have the embarrassment, on the other the loneliness, in some cases both simultaneously. And it's true, those 'funny' stories about penis size are really fucked up and screw with the heads of a lot of guys. People think they're being cool and savage, but nothing says insecure quite like making posts like that. And women definitely say some stupid shit, that whole breaking up with a guy for cock size is cruel but probably better for him in the long run. No point being in a relationship with that kind of girl, just end up hurting more down the line. Still, pretty sad set of circumstances. So what do you do for fun? What do you watch, play, etc? Sounds like you work hard, what is it you do exactly? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Smallbeans Posted July 23, 2017 Report Share Posted July 23, 2017 @Helpless_loner I too have the penile papules I believe they are called Fordyce spots. I have done many hours of research on them because for a long time they were my most hated part of me(along with everything else). I read on many websites that most woman don't care about them and they usually go away eventually. I believe it is wikihow that has a few remedies you can try and other ways to get rid of them/make them look less visable. The first time my wife seen then she didn't even mention them. Which helped with my anxiety loads. I actually pointed them out and explained what they were to make myself feel better. @YOTH is right. Any girl who breaks up with a guy because of the size of his cock is not a woman you want to be spending anytime with. Believe me when I say this there are woman out there who won't care about your cock or what you can do with it but more about how you treat them and make them feel. Trust me my wife is one of them. I am EXTREMLY lucky to have found her and if I can I know you guys can too. besides a guy has more than his cock to work with in the bedroom. Learn how to use your fingers and tongue and she will not even care if you have a dick, never mind the size of it.  Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
YOTH Posted July 23, 2017 Report Share Posted July 23, 2017 On 22/07/2017 at 9:49 AM, Smallbeans said: I've seen Frankie Boyle and Lee Evans live. They are the two biggest. Seen loads of comedians like Steven K Amos and Mickey Flannigan like at the fringe. Are you in Edinburgh? I lived there for a few years back in the day, it was the best for comedy and music (even though I didn't see as much as I'd have liked, kind of took it for granted). I miss that place, I wouldn't have moved if it'd been my choice and I'd move back in a heartbeat. But I don't miss the rent haha. Smallbeans 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Smallbeans Posted July 23, 2017 Report Share Posted July 23, 2017 @YOTH yes mate. Well more portobello now. Moved from leith last year when me and the missus bought a house. Thank god we bought a two bedroom. I love the city during the festival. Can't stand the tourists though but what can you do. I've also seen Reginald D Hunter before he got big. He was really funny. Done a show in what I would call a shed infront of around 30 people.  When where you last in Edinburgh? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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YOTH Posted July 25, 2017 Report Share Posted July 25, 2017 I'm not sure about the exact date but the time is about right. Shouldn't be an issue hopefully. We'll maybe have a chat on the phone beforehand as well to break the proverbial ice, but I don't see why we couldn't make it happen. No point talking the talk if I don't walk the walk. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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YOTH Posted July 26, 2017 Report Share Posted July 26, 2017 Sounds like a plan. I'll probably just give you my real number tho, it's free that way lol. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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YOTH Posted August 1, 2017 Report Share Posted August 1, 2017 @lookingforafriend So, did you manage to get your sim? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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YOTH Posted August 3, 2017 Report Share Posted August 3, 2017 @lookingforafriend I've ordered a sim that can make very cheap international calls. 1p a minute to the U.S. which might come in handy if those guys want to talk and get in on the support group. If you get the sim when you get a chance we'll speak next week and we can start arranging this meet. Looking forward to it, my friend. Speak soon ? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Small Posted August 4, 2017 Report Share Posted August 4, 2017 Okay so. Don't you think it's a little weird taking your girlfriends? It's awkward enough without them surely. And for those of us without girlfriends? And those that might feel uncomfortable around women that have knowledge of our sizes? They will make any discussion of sps extremely awkward. Am I the only one that thinks this? YOTH 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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