Sometimes I feel like I'm trying too hard ...

For instance, I come here, constantly querying for some change in the board. Now, there are lots of people here with serious problems, and if I can do something to help, then great. But in many ways, focusing on their and my own problems is helping to distract me from my own solutions.

The same is true for all the time I spend worrying about things when I'm not here. It's not helping. I need to just do stuff. Be happy now instead of worrying how I can be happy in the future.