So, okay, having established that balance is a good thing, you might be tempted to ask, well, how are you doing in achieving it?
Not that well. I've always been known as a better preacher than practitioner. I've been finding it particularly difficult to establish a direction for my life, since I'm at a place where I have the opportunity to make a new choice. What I don't seem to be able to do is to identify what I want.
I mean, I had my life set up a certain way when I was single. I lived alone, I had two cats, I had interests, or hobbies, but I was still mostly marking time. That waiting feeling is what caused me to jump so fast when a relationship was offered. And unfortunately, that feeling is back. At least I've changed enough not to be satisfied with that; I just haven't figured out what to do differently.