and admitting what has been going on with my thoughts and feelings is unexplainable. I am unable to express in words because my mind is ALL OVER THE PLACE. My shadows are up close and personal now. I am on auto-pilot about to crash and burn...

At this point that is not an unpleasant thought. I have faith that everything will work out as it was meant to, good or bad. I will either survive or not. I just choose to believe EVERYTHING will be okay.

For so many years now I have focused on my Mama. Yeah, living together was sometimes difficult at best and almost unbearable at its worst... here again I must run to do something for someone else...can't have a freaking minute to myself.