danielle Posted June 7, 2008 Report Share Posted June 7, 2008 i have been depressed for about 4 or 5 years. I am 20 yrs old now and it seems to be getting worse i am up until 5am crying most nights. i desperately want help and my boyfriend knows i am depressed but its very difficult for me to talk to him about it. i have been dating my boyfriend for a little over 3 yrs and he really want me to get help with me depression as well. after about 2 yrs of dating i finally agreed to see a therapist and i went to one session and never went back. About a month ago agreed to try again and have continued to go but it is not helping. I generally lie to m shrink so she think i am much happier then i am. I want help with me depression so bad but cant seem to get over my fear of actually talking about it or telling anyone anything. I will not share my feelings with anyone because i have a very intense fear of sharing my feeling or being betrayed in some way. I would like to know if there is any way for me to overcome my fears and finally start feeling better. I am also an extremely paranoid person. I am very pessimistic and always expect something terrible to happen. I always assume my boyfriend is lieing unless what he tells me is bad. I do not believe most of what people tell and i also tend to lie because i am afraid of people knowing the truth about me and my feelings. I always feel like everyone is hiding something from me especially my boyfriend. He has never done anything to make me not trust him bt yet i can't trust him or anyone for that matter. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Join the conversation
You can post now and register later. If you have an account, sign in now to post with your account.
Note: Your post will require moderator approval before it will be visible.