TerrifiedUser Posted September 7, 2010 Report Share Posted September 7, 2010 ... I have tried too see where I stand in this whole pedophilia thing.Baisically, based on what I say, I want to know if I sound like a pedophile1.) I have never had any desire to look up CP2.) I have never had any desire for sexual contact with a child3.) As of late, I have purely been masturbating to thoughts. When I fantasize I think of Adult woman my age (18) or older (I also fantasize about a girl I know who is 16, but again, I don't think an 18 year old finding a 16 year old attractive counts as pedophilia)However, there is also the issue that certain things involving children can seem to cause some arrousal, for example:I was on dailymotion and I saw video advertising a nudist resort. In it was a clip of two nudist girls much younger. My first thoughts were one's of arrousal, but I was able with some effort to view the image in a non-sexual light, something which I would not be able to do with a video of nude adults. However, my first feelings were of arrousal, and I probably could mb to this section of the video quite easily.Also, while on dailymotion on another occasion, I saw a video of 2 nude girls making out in bed. The video described them as being teens, but they looked very young, possibly young teens, maybe not even teens. I flaggeed the video and it was taken down shortly after. However, my first feeling was of arrousal. I could kind of convince myself I wasn#t arroused by it, but really I was.I also have had similar problems like this on some images I stumbled across on a nudist website, which were of kids.This also takes me onto another key point:4.) I am arroused by the thought of myself nude, especially in open spaces, even if I am alone. The idea of myself beng nude around other people clothed or nude is arrousing as well (it was because of this I stumbled across nudist websites. I was not looking for images of children).This makes me wonder if I am purely arroused by the act of being nude, rather than being nude in a sexual situation. Maybe my arrousal toward other people nude is not because I am sexually attracted to them. However, the video I saw on daily motion of the two very young girls making out nude, and my feelings towards this only worsens my insecurities.Thank you for taking the time to read this. Please be honest in how you feel. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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